religion is private. suggest you start by just reading your bible. just about every one will try and sell you on there own brand of religion. No religious group is safe from infiltration in fact churches make good hunting grounds for people with bad intent and motives. You will know Christians by the fruit of there labor . there are a lot of good religious people but almost all organizations have a level of corruption becouse of mans nature....I suggest you take a couple of months and just visit different churches in your area and find one you are comfortable with. this may or may not be the one you stick with. the important thing is finding people who are loving becouse we all need love and support. god bless and I will prey for you just be aware that not all who profess faith in Christ are Christians but I feel that it is not my place to say whether they are or are not becouse in the end its all between you and god.