I think we've all been somewhere where you are before. I have in middle school. That said...
Wanting a relationship with that going on will be a cancer to any relationship – either unrealistic expectations or lack of trust, or lots of other issues that will hurt your relationship with others. That's not to say what it does to you physically and emotionally.
If you're serious about getting out, do as others have said and get the devices or whatever you're using out. If that means getting a dumb phone and keeping your computer at work – do it. Get filters. Anything to help.
It gets easier, too, when you get off and learn to train yourself not to "look" at things that arouse you. I'm in my 30s now (and married 5+ years), and it's not something I even consider or have any desire for. I think the key is learning to bounce your eyes, speak well of women, etc.
I think we've all been somewhere where you are before. I have in middle school. That said...
Wanting a relationship with that going on will be a cancer to any relationship – either unrealistic expectations or lack of trust, or lots of other issues that will hurt your relationship with others. That's not to say what it does to you physically and emotionally.
If you're serious about getting out, do as others have said and get the devices or whatever you're using out. If that means getting a dumb phone and keeping your computer at work – do it. Get filters. Anything to help.
It gets easier, too, when you get off and learn to train yourself not to "look" at things that arouse you. I'm in my 30s now (and married 5+ years), and it's not something I even consider or have any desire for. I think the key is learning to bounce your eyes, speak well of women, etc.