No. I'm autistic and all of my compensation mechanisms have broken down. Even though I am a strong Christian that has absolute faith in GOD and have been through many trials that GOD turned into blessings, I am having great difficulty with depression and focus. I am about to get fired from my job and my prospects at getting another job are very slim. All I do us lay in bed and pray, or try to.
Since November, I have sought professional help. I was just prescribed a very low dosage of Wellbutrin. It seems to help, but I need prayer. The world has just become so surreal it's hard for me to cope. Being autistic, I have a low threshold for clown world :(
Edit: Btw, I have been researching the exploitation of children long before I heard of Q. In fact I started in 1997. When I encountered Q and watched some videos in late September, I couldn't sleep for three days. All if the pieces if the puzzle fell into place. It was very traumatic for me.
I'm glad you posted fren. I love the empathy we can recieve on this board from others feeling the same. I'm sorry you're having such a bad time and will truly include you in my sincerest prayers. I like what SirReginald said that it can help you and it can help me just having the conversation with other like minded frens. Hang in there and know that God is aware if your struggle and blessings of comfort and peace be upon you
Thank you and GOD Bless you mightily. Believe me when I say that your post and the conversation that it has started is a great blessing to me and others. SirReginald speaks wisdom.
I, myself have some difficulty with language. I didn't start speaking until I was over three years old, but I was reading the backs of the cereal boxes before I was four. I have figured out that I am missing some of the hardware that neurotypical people use to parse human phonemes. If more then one person is speaking, I can't separate the voices. I miss about 20% of the words when watching TV. I can write pretty well, but I takes me hours to write what a typical person can write in 15 minutes.
There is more then this. I am also missing the hardware to interpret higher level human body language, but I am very atuned to low level ones. I have to use software to compensate. Software solutions are always slower then hardware solutions. This means that I can't parse the nonverbal ques that are used to coordinate a conversation in time to use them.
It's even worse. I don't think in language but in pictures and math. My thoughts don't serialize out into language very well. If I'm not careful, people can't understand what I am trying to say. On top if this, I have things I would like to communicate but can't. That stuff just stays locked up in my head. When I try to communicate but no one understands no matter how hard I try, I get very frustrated. This frustration sometimes leads to an autistic meltdown.
Take what I described and multiply it by 10.
In order to describe to typical people what autism is like I use this analogy. Autism is like being in a box. You can hear and see a little bit of what is outside, but those on the outside can't hear or see you very well at all. No matter how hard you try, no one on the outside can understand what you are saying.
Thank you fren, he does and I'm glad we have this thread that we can talk and share. God loves your tender heart and I promise you that you will see blessings for that
You are not alone. Even though it may feel like you are. I'm very familiar with your struggle with autism. You are not alone in that either. I fully believe we are all here and connecting for a reason. God created us for this time.
I also truly believe that GOD has been building and training me for this time, to be a weapon against the powers of darkness. I think of all of my trials as training. A good school is not easy. It is very difficult. A good school is hard to get into. Going to one is a privilege. I thank GOD, that He has felt that I am worthy to go through what I have. I'm thankful for how much I have learned and how much I have grown. Mostly, I have absolute faith that GOD has always had His Hand on me.
I will, with GOD's help, get through my current problems. I just need to remember to keep my focus on the prize.
OCD here (not the kind people joke about when they want things tidy; the kind that messes up the way you talk, think, act, etc.) I hated that I needed to get on meds but it really helped level me out. I'll pray for you. One thing I can say about a life of suffering is that the hard times do give way to good times eventually. Hang in there.
I have the ADHD and OCD comorbidities commonly associated with Autism. My OCD tendencies are pretty mild, but cause problems. I understand what its like. OCD is not a joke. For me, I need routine and stability. The chaos caused by the shutdowns, muzzle wearing, and isolation have impacted me a lot. I have become disfuncional and can't even do my chores. My bedroom is a disorganized mess and it drives me crazy, but I am too stressed to do anything. It's crazy. I also hated to get meds. I will keep you in my prayers. Together, with GOD, we can get through anything. GOD bless you.
Thank you! There was a time I couldn't look five minutes ahead without having the life drain out of me, but God was and still is always there. Just take it day by day and reward yourself when you get something done. Feels odd at first, but it really helps. With a lot of prayer, I was even able to quit the two packs per day of cigarettes. God is good and He doesn't put you through trials without bringing good out of them.
I've done a huge amount of research, especially since I started to have problems with the covid insanity. Undiagnosed ADHD and ASDs is a major issue, but the problem is far greater for girls. There is a lot of ongoing research trying to fix the problem.
I work in a field that attracts ADHD people. I know many lady engineers who clearly display ADHD tendencies. If I were you, I'd do some research. For Autism, which often is accompanied by ADHD, there is the Autism Self Advocacy Network. They have a lot of info regarding Autism/ADHD in women.
Mental health still has a stigma. Unfortunately with being awake, seeing disturbing images and realizing there are sick people and our brains struggling to comprehend or wait for justice, it is compound if someone has any mental health issue.
My belief has always been that God puts people in our life for a reason. Working in the MH field has been so rewarding for me and even though I have the training, education and experience, the images and information still affects me. Keep the faith, trust in God and WWG1WWA
I'm not autistic, but definitely on the spectrum. During this COVID scam I could not function at work. I work in tech in Silicon Valley and being the only awake/Trump supporter was a huge mental burden every day. Like you probably were, I was anticipating justice for the children that never came (at least publicly). Forcing a smile on Zoom calls with my asleep leftist co-workers was torture. I couldn't function, and I finally had to mutually agree to leave that job and have been unemployed since Dec.
Do be careful with the Wellbutrin. Everybody's brain is different, but it made me suicidal...and then my docs tried to up my dose! I pray it works better for you.
Oh boy, I understand. I myself work for a major High Tech company whose headquarters is in Silicone Valley. Being autistic, I sometimes speak truth when I shouldn't. If it were not for the fact that the woke assume that everyone is woke, like them, and are incapable of overcoming preconceptions even when confronted with personally experienced data, I would be in real trouble. I once had a boss wisper into my ear after a meeting "Don't worry, you aren't alone." Us base have to stay hidden. As it is, I have been censored on the company employees forum several times. Those running it have contacted my manager. I now have a comment in my review regarding inappropriate comments.
As for Wellbutrin, my doctor is being very careful. He has been my primary care physician for 6 years. We have had many conversations regarding my symptoms. So when I finally decided that I probably need some medication, he was prepared. I'm 61 and Wellbutrin works pretty good for people my age and causes less side effects then in younger people. But he still screened me. I had to answer a bunch of questions. I am supposed to take it every other day for the first week and if all goes well, start taking it every day, in the morning. I am supposed to meet with the psychologist every two weeks and immediately report any mood changes or anxieties. I am supposed to meet with my doctor regularly.
No. I'm autistic and all of my compensation mechanisms have broken down. Even though I am a strong Christian that has absolute faith in GOD and have been through many trials that GOD turned into blessings, I am having great difficulty with depression and focus. I am about to get fired from my job and my prospects at getting another job are very slim. All I do us lay in bed and pray, or try to.
Since November, I have sought professional help. I was just prescribed a very low dosage of Wellbutrin. It seems to help, but I need prayer. The world has just become so surreal it's hard for me to cope. Being autistic, I have a low threshold for clown world :(
Edit: Btw, I have been researching the exploitation of children long before I heard of Q. In fact I started in 1997. When I encountered Q and watched some videos in late September, I couldn't sleep for three days. All if the pieces if the puzzle fell into place. It was very traumatic for me.
I'm glad you posted fren. I love the empathy we can recieve on this board from others feeling the same. I'm sorry you're having such a bad time and will truly include you in my sincerest prayers. I like what SirReginald said that it can help you and it can help me just having the conversation with other like minded frens. Hang in there and know that God is aware if your struggle and blessings of comfort and peace be upon you
Thank you and GOD Bless you mightily. Believe me when I say that your post and the conversation that it has started is a great blessing to me and others. SirReginald speaks wisdom.
Thank you got sharing. Our son has autism and is non-verbal so your insight is beautiful to us.
I, myself have some difficulty with language. I didn't start speaking until I was over three years old, but I was reading the backs of the cereal boxes before I was four. I have figured out that I am missing some of the hardware that neurotypical people use to parse human phonemes. If more then one person is speaking, I can't separate the voices. I miss about 20% of the words when watching TV. I can write pretty well, but I takes me hours to write what a typical person can write in 15 minutes.
There is more then this. I am also missing the hardware to interpret higher level human body language, but I am very atuned to low level ones. I have to use software to compensate. Software solutions are always slower then hardware solutions. This means that I can't parse the nonverbal ques that are used to coordinate a conversation in time to use them.
It's even worse. I don't think in language but in pictures and math. My thoughts don't serialize out into language very well. If I'm not careful, people can't understand what I am trying to say. On top if this, I have things I would like to communicate but can't. That stuff just stays locked up in my head. When I try to communicate but no one understands no matter how hard I try, I get very frustrated. This frustration sometimes leads to an autistic meltdown.
Take what I described and multiply it by 10.
In order to describe to typical people what autism is like I use this analogy. Autism is like being in a box. You can hear and see a little bit of what is outside, but those on the outside can't hear or see you very well at all. No matter how hard you try, no one on the outside can understand what you are saying.
Thank you fren, he does and I'm glad we have this thread that we can talk and share. God loves your tender heart and I promise you that you will see blessings for that
You are not alone. Even though it may feel like you are. I'm very familiar with your struggle with autism. You are not alone in that either. I fully believe we are all here and connecting for a reason. God created us for this time.
Amen to your words, fren
Thank you brother, and GOD bless you.
I also truly believe that GOD has been building and training me for this time, to be a weapon against the powers of darkness. I think of all of my trials as training. A good school is not easy. It is very difficult. A good school is hard to get into. Going to one is a privilege. I thank GOD, that He has felt that I am worthy to go through what I have. I'm thankful for how much I have learned and how much I have grown. Mostly, I have absolute faith that GOD has always had His Hand on me.
I will, with GOD's help, get through my current problems. I just need to remember to keep my focus on the prize.
Thank you brother, and GOD bless you.
OCD here (not the kind people joke about when they want things tidy; the kind that messes up the way you talk, think, act, etc.) I hated that I needed to get on meds but it really helped level me out. I'll pray for you. One thing I can say about a life of suffering is that the hard times do give way to good times eventually. Hang in there.
I have the ADHD and OCD comorbidities commonly associated with Autism. My OCD tendencies are pretty mild, but cause problems. I understand what its like. OCD is not a joke. For me, I need routine and stability. The chaos caused by the shutdowns, muzzle wearing, and isolation have impacted me a lot. I have become disfuncional and can't even do my chores. My bedroom is a disorganized mess and it drives me crazy, but I am too stressed to do anything. It's crazy. I also hated to get meds. I will keep you in my prayers. Together, with GOD, we can get through anything. GOD bless you.
Thank you! There was a time I couldn't look five minutes ahead without having the life drain out of me, but God was and still is always there. Just take it day by day and reward yourself when you get something done. Feels odd at first, but it really helps. With a lot of prayer, I was even able to quit the two packs per day of cigarettes. God is good and He doesn't put you through trials without bringing good out of them.
I've done a huge amount of research, especially since I started to have problems with the covid insanity. Undiagnosed ADHD and ASDs is a major issue, but the problem is far greater for girls. There is a lot of ongoing research trying to fix the problem.
I work in a field that attracts ADHD people. I know many lady engineers who clearly display ADHD tendencies. If I were you, I'd do some research. For Autism, which often is accompanied by ADHD, there is the Autism Self Advocacy Network. They have a lot of info regarding Autism/ADHD in women.
Mental health still has a stigma. Unfortunately with being awake, seeing disturbing images and realizing there are sick people and our brains struggling to comprehend or wait for justice, it is compound if someone has any mental health issue. My belief has always been that God puts people in our life for a reason. Working in the MH field has been so rewarding for me and even though I have the training, education and experience, the images and information still affects me. Keep the faith, trust in God and WWG1WWA
I feel you, fren.
I'm not autistic, but definitely on the spectrum. During this COVID scam I could not function at work. I work in tech in Silicon Valley and being the only awake/Trump supporter was a huge mental burden every day. Like you probably were, I was anticipating justice for the children that never came (at least publicly). Forcing a smile on Zoom calls with my asleep leftist co-workers was torture. I couldn't function, and I finally had to mutually agree to leave that job and have been unemployed since Dec.
Do be careful with the Wellbutrin. Everybody's brain is different, but it made me suicidal...and then my docs tried to up my dose! I pray it works better for you.
God bless.
Oh boy, I understand. I myself work for a major High Tech company whose headquarters is in Silicone Valley. Being autistic, I sometimes speak truth when I shouldn't. If it were not for the fact that the woke assume that everyone is woke, like them, and are incapable of overcoming preconceptions even when confronted with personally experienced data, I would be in real trouble. I once had a boss wisper into my ear after a meeting "Don't worry, you aren't alone." Us base have to stay hidden. As it is, I have been censored on the company employees forum several times. Those running it have contacted my manager. I now have a comment in my review regarding inappropriate comments.
As for Wellbutrin, my doctor is being very careful. He has been my primary care physician for 6 years. We have had many conversations regarding my symptoms. So when I finally decided that I probably need some medication, he was prepared. I'm 61 and Wellbutrin works pretty good for people my age and causes less side effects then in younger people. But he still screened me. I had to answer a bunch of questions. I am supposed to take it every other day for the first week and if all goes well, start taking it every day, in the morning. I am supposed to meet with the psychologist every two weeks and immediately report any mood changes or anxieties. I am supposed to meet with my doctor regularly.