Thank you and GOD Bless you mightily. Believe me when I say that your post and the conversation that it has started is a great blessing to me and others. SirReginald speaks wisdom.
I, myself have some difficulty with language. I didn't start speaking until I was over three years old, but I was reading the backs of the cereal boxes before I was four. I have figured out that I am missing some of the hardware that neurotypical people use to parse human phonemes. If more then one person is speaking, I can't separate the voices. I miss about 20% of the words when watching TV. I can write pretty well, but I takes me hours to write what a typical person can write in 15 minutes.
There is more then this. I am also missing the hardware to interpret higher level human body language, but I am very atuned to low level ones. I have to use software to compensate. Software solutions are always slower then hardware solutions. This means that I can't parse the nonverbal ques that are used to coordinate a conversation in time to use them.
It's even worse. I don't think in language but in pictures and math. My thoughts don't serialize out into language very well. If I'm not careful, people can't understand what I am trying to say. On top if this, I have things I would like to communicate but can't. That stuff just stays locked up in my head. When I try to communicate but no one understands no matter how hard I try, I get very frustrated. This frustration sometimes leads to an autistic meltdown.
Take what I described and multiply it by 10.
In order to describe to typical people what autism is like I use this analogy. Autism is like being in a box. You can hear and see a little bit of what is outside, but those on the outside can't hear or see you very well at all. No matter how hard you try, no one on the outside can understand what you are saying.
Oh wow. I feel for you but you are both a winner and a blessing. Our son is a very happy young man but he is severe and non-verbal. He gets in his head a lot and I often wonder what he is thinking and feeling. Thankfully he is a very go with the flow kind of person and when he gets overwhelmed and starts stemming, dad has to literally help him snap out of it. He became this way after his mmr vaccine but his twin sister did not change. Have they ever told you why you have autism? I always say that the evil people tried to destroy us but instead created an army of super soldiers who will take them down purely for fun (and revenge). I hope this makes sense to you and I thank you for sharing. You are in my prayers and know that you are important to our patriot movement.
GOD bless you and your husband. It is so heartrending to hear that you accept your son for who he is. I'm glad that you understand his need for stimming. I have my stim toys. When I learned about stimming, I realized that I had been making my own stim toys since I was 6. Some of the things I made are just like stim toys that are on the market today. We do spend a lot of time in our heads. Stimming helps focus and shunts away the frustration of knowing that what we are thinking about can never be shared. Sensory overload can cause incredible stress and stimming really helps with that. It's so weird.
For a whole bunch of reasons, I don't think that vaccines are the cause of autism. It's just a coincidence that the symptoms show up at around the same age as vaccinations. If vaccines were a cause, that would indicate brain damage. That would preclude any beneficial differences. On the other hand, if autism is a naturally occurring difference in neural wiring, some of it's expression can be beneficial. In my case I can do things with my eyesight that you can not imagine. For one thing, I have absolutely perfect color vision. I ace even the most advanced color tests and I'm male! I can freeze frame very fast moving objects. And that's just the beginning. I think I'm autistic because that is how He made me. Remember that in Heaven those that are last will be first. I truly believe that your son is a blessing.
I'm 61. I probably was identified as autistic when I was tested as a freshman in high school, but my mom most likely rejected the diagnosis. She thought of me as her little genius so I couldn't possibly be a special needs kid. I didn't find out until I started to research things to help me help my foster son (who us also autistic). That was when I was 42. Last November, I got myself evaluated to confirm what I already knew.
It's funny about what you say about "super soldiers". In high school, when I started to understand that my deficiencies actually hide a whole host of amazing capabilities, I realized I could be quite dangerous. I started to think of myself as a self controlled monster filled with love and not hate. One of the names I write under, in full, is Kami no Bakemonokoyote. That's Japanese. It is roughly translated as GOD's Werecoyote, though you need to look up the meaning of bakemono to get the full impact.
I believe that GOD has made me as a weapon against the Darkness. Btw, all of my friends are Autistic. They all love GOD.
As a Speech Language Pathologist I understand your difficulties very well. I didn't speak until I was 3 years old either, but I was probably shell shocked as I was born in the middle of two others in diapers and was the 4th child out of 6! Or my mom didn't notice I was talking bc she was so busy with her brood. She did say I spoke in complete sentences once I did "start" talking. But in those days we didn't have the help for kids with problems like they do now.
In spite of your language difficulties you are very good at expressing yourself here in the written word even though you say it takes you a long time. You sound like a wonderful person.
I will pray you will be able to get your life back in order and find a good job. Prayers do work!
In the meantime take the time to check out this website to find a job where your talents can be put to use in spite of your difficulties: There are a number of companies who hire adults like yourself.
Does my theory that I am missing 'hardware' needed to parse human phonemes so I have developed a 'software' solution to compensate, make sense to you?
Btw, when I started to speak it was in complete sentences also, but I misspronounced so many words, my parents had difficulty trying to understand what I was trying to say. For example I would refer to 'milk' as 'guck'.
As for the future, I'm not to concerned. GOD has led me through many trials already.
Thank you fren, he does and I'm glad we have this thread that we can talk and share. God loves your tender heart and I promise you that you will see blessings for that
Thank you and GOD Bless you mightily. Believe me when I say that your post and the conversation that it has started is a great blessing to me and others. SirReginald speaks wisdom.
Thank you got sharing. Our son has autism and is non-verbal so your insight is beautiful to us.
I, myself have some difficulty with language. I didn't start speaking until I was over three years old, but I was reading the backs of the cereal boxes before I was four. I have figured out that I am missing some of the hardware that neurotypical people use to parse human phonemes. If more then one person is speaking, I can't separate the voices. I miss about 20% of the words when watching TV. I can write pretty well, but I takes me hours to write what a typical person can write in 15 minutes.
There is more then this. I am also missing the hardware to interpret higher level human body language, but I am very atuned to low level ones. I have to use software to compensate. Software solutions are always slower then hardware solutions. This means that I can't parse the nonverbal ques that are used to coordinate a conversation in time to use them.
It's even worse. I don't think in language but in pictures and math. My thoughts don't serialize out into language very well. If I'm not careful, people can't understand what I am trying to say. On top if this, I have things I would like to communicate but can't. That stuff just stays locked up in my head. When I try to communicate but no one understands no matter how hard I try, I get very frustrated. This frustration sometimes leads to an autistic meltdown.
Take what I described and multiply it by 10.
In order to describe to typical people what autism is like I use this analogy. Autism is like being in a box. You can hear and see a little bit of what is outside, but those on the outside can't hear or see you very well at all. No matter how hard you try, no one on the outside can understand what you are saying.
Oh wow. I feel for you but you are both a winner and a blessing. Our son is a very happy young man but he is severe and non-verbal. He gets in his head a lot and I often wonder what he is thinking and feeling. Thankfully he is a very go with the flow kind of person and when he gets overwhelmed and starts stemming, dad has to literally help him snap out of it. He became this way after his mmr vaccine but his twin sister did not change. Have they ever told you why you have autism? I always say that the evil people tried to destroy us but instead created an army of super soldiers who will take them down purely for fun (and revenge). I hope this makes sense to you and I thank you for sharing. You are in my prayers and know that you are important to our patriot movement.
GOD bless you and your husband. It is so heartrending to hear that you accept your son for who he is. I'm glad that you understand his need for stimming. I have my stim toys. When I learned about stimming, I realized that I had been making my own stim toys since I was 6. Some of the things I made are just like stim toys that are on the market today. We do spend a lot of time in our heads. Stimming helps focus and shunts away the frustration of knowing that what we are thinking about can never be shared. Sensory overload can cause incredible stress and stimming really helps with that. It's so weird.
For a whole bunch of reasons, I don't think that vaccines are the cause of autism. It's just a coincidence that the symptoms show up at around the same age as vaccinations. If vaccines were a cause, that would indicate brain damage. That would preclude any beneficial differences. On the other hand, if autism is a naturally occurring difference in neural wiring, some of it's expression can be beneficial. In my case I can do things with my eyesight that you can not imagine. For one thing, I have absolutely perfect color vision. I ace even the most advanced color tests and I'm male! I can freeze frame very fast moving objects. And that's just the beginning. I think I'm autistic because that is how He made me. Remember that in Heaven those that are last will be first. I truly believe that your son is a blessing.
I'm 61. I probably was identified as autistic when I was tested as a freshman in high school, but my mom most likely rejected the diagnosis. She thought of me as her little genius so I couldn't possibly be a special needs kid. I didn't find out until I started to research things to help me help my foster son (who us also autistic). That was when I was 42. Last November, I got myself evaluated to confirm what I already knew.
It's funny about what you say about "super soldiers". In high school, when I started to understand that my deficiencies actually hide a whole host of amazing capabilities, I realized I could be quite dangerous. I started to think of myself as a self controlled monster filled with love and not hate. One of the names I write under, in full, is Kami no Bakemonokoyote. That's Japanese. It is roughly translated as GOD's Werecoyote, though you need to look up the meaning of bakemono to get the full impact.
I believe that GOD has made me as a weapon against the Darkness. Btw, all of my friends are Autistic. They all love GOD.
As a Speech Language Pathologist I understand your difficulties very well. I didn't speak until I was 3 years old either, but I was probably shell shocked as I was born in the middle of two others in diapers and was the 4th child out of 6! Or my mom didn't notice I was talking bc she was so busy with her brood. She did say I spoke in complete sentences once I did "start" talking. But in those days we didn't have the help for kids with problems like they do now.
In spite of your language difficulties you are very good at expressing yourself here in the written word even though you say it takes you a long time. You sound like a wonderful person.
I will pray you will be able to get your life back in order and find a good job. Prayers do work!
In the meantime take the time to check out this website to find a job where your talents can be put to use in spite of your difficulties: There are a number of companies who hire adults like yourself.
https://www.joinsprouttherapy.com/autism-resources/jobs-and-careers
Thank you do much.
Does my theory that I am missing 'hardware' needed to parse human phonemes so I have developed a 'software' solution to compensate, make sense to you?
Btw, when I started to speak it was in complete sentences also, but I misspronounced so many words, my parents had difficulty trying to understand what I was trying to say. For example I would refer to 'milk' as 'guck'.
As for the future, I'm not to concerned. GOD has led me through many trials already.
Thank you fren, he does and I'm glad we have this thread that we can talk and share. God loves your tender heart and I promise you that you will see blessings for that