While I wish I could have fought back, I'm only a girl, I had no real strength or power. And while I tried to fight back mentally and with wit it never turned out well, I just didn't have the courage for it back then. I'm much stronger now, both physically and mentally, and it's true that being bullied helped me achieve that, but I wish it still hadn't happened because it truly did scar me for all this time. It's something you'd like to forget but it becomes so ingrained in you that you can't escape it.
Ever since that horrible bullying I've always been extremely self-conscious and I always look down. I tell myself that those bullies are not doing so well in life and that I'm doing better than them, but that's only true half of the time. Unfortunately a lot of them have gone on to live successful lives, no doubt back springing off of the wealth of their parents. But life is never fair, so the only thing I can do is to better myself and hope I will be rewarded in kind someday.
The best way that you can "get over" what happened to you so that you look at it as an unfortunate even and not let it define you is through either EMDR or you could try sleep hypnosis audios or videos. There's a ton of free ones but EMDR is very powerful and has helped me with several similar issues.
Stand up straight, hold your head up high and look people in the eye. Your current posture just screams victim and will encourage someone else to victimize you.
As hard as it may seem, you will eventually get to a point where you will learn to not unwillingly give people any type of power over you.
I don't consider myself as a victim, and I don't hold myself as such now, but I still have trouble being my true self around people for fear I'll be rejected and ostracized like I was back then at the tender age of 12. I became very outspoken in my early 20s but I'm far more reserved now, losing energy as I get older, but I speak up when I can. Some days are better, some days aren't, it really just depends. I try not to let what happened to me have much effect now, but traumatizing things that happen when you're a child hold onto you forever no matter how much you wish they wouldn't. I try to fill my time with useful and active pursuits.
No offense taken, I know you meant well. But yes, childhood trauma is sometimes hard to get rid of. I can't imagine what it's like for kids today, with people pushing sex and gender nonsense on them so young.
While I wish I could have fought back, I'm only a girl, I had no real strength or power. And while I tried to fight back mentally and with wit it never turned out well, I just didn't have the courage for it back then. I'm much stronger now, both physically and mentally, and it's true that being bullied helped me achieve that, but I wish it still hadn't happened because it truly did scar me for all this time. It's something you'd like to forget but it becomes so ingrained in you that you can't escape it.
Ever since that horrible bullying I've always been extremely self-conscious and I always look down. I tell myself that those bullies are not doing so well in life and that I'm doing better than them, but that's only true half of the time. Unfortunately a lot of them have gone on to live successful lives, no doubt back springing off of the wealth of their parents. But life is never fair, so the only thing I can do is to better myself and hope I will be rewarded in kind someday.
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The best way that you can "get over" what happened to you so that you look at it as an unfortunate even and not let it define you is through either EMDR or you could try sleep hypnosis audios or videos. There's a ton of free ones but EMDR is very powerful and has helped me with several similar issues.
Stand up straight, hold your head up high and look people in the eye. Your current posture just screams victim and will encourage someone else to victimize you.
As hard as it may seem, you will eventually get to a point where you will learn to not unwillingly give people any type of power over you.
Wishing you the best that life has to offer.
I don't consider myself as a victim, and I don't hold myself as such now, but I still have trouble being my true self around people for fear I'll be rejected and ostracized like I was back then at the tender age of 12. I became very outspoken in my early 20s but I'm far more reserved now, losing energy as I get older, but I speak up when I can. Some days are better, some days aren't, it really just depends. I try not to let what happened to me have much effect now, but traumatizing things that happen when you're a child hold onto you forever no matter how much you wish they wouldn't. I try to fill my time with useful and active pursuits.
No offense intended. 100% understand childhood trauma and it's impact on one's psyche.
No offense taken, I know you meant well. But yes, childhood trauma is sometimes hard to get rid of. I can't imagine what it's like for kids today, with people pushing sex and gender nonsense on them so young.