When I look around I see many people who although might be good, humble and smart are still asleep. I see good christian people who are.much better people than myself who are asleep.
I wonder why I think the way I do and question the way I do. O6t seems it would be easier and more blissful to be asleep but my mind cant help itself. Why is that?
I think it's the same for all of us. Something inherent in oiur thinking refuses to accept illogical excuses for this illogical reality. It's hard to explain. Sometimes infeel.likeninwas chosen for this. This was my purpose perhaps.
I always felt different too. I was smart but not brilliant. I just never fit in well with any groups until I went to Officer Training School for USAF. I think I was just old for my age. I had the best time in the Air Force and gained the confidence to dare to be different and be myself. I am conservative now because of the military and the older engineers in General Dynamics. We sat in an open room at a missile launch site and had many a conversation about sports and politics when we weren’t out on the launch pad. Those men had wild stories from the Cuban Missile Crisis that have stayed with me. They slept at the site for days and were reconfiguring the Atlas missiles to put live warheads on them. I had a hundred or so older brothers at that job and they helped make me a better woman :)