Imagine Lot in Sodom/Gomorrah (twin cities?). He didn't know his relative would be sent in to save him. He didn't even know the place would be destroyed - he may have thought all the world was like that. He may have thought the best he could do would be to tough it out, be help for strangers wandering in, protecting his little house and trying to get along. His ditsy wife thought about losing her social media account followers, and looked back.

Anyway, try to unplug, quiet your mind, and listen to that still, small voice. He is there. Then come back and pray with a group, find your fellowship here.