Hang in there, talk to God, if you believe and you love then he has not forsaken you. You can only help the rest of us by praying for us. The rest of it is up to us individually to do the same as you. To help your strength think of the persecution of the Christians by the Romans. Many died but Christianity survived and flourished. Be at peace with your love, embrace the Trinity. Help where you can, and be sure to help and care for yourself.