This might piss you off, but I put on a mask for the first time ever yesterday.
It was only for a few minutes, and yes it felt wrong as fuck, but it happened.
On the plus side I finally got some testing done at the hospital I had been putting off for over a year. Was it worth it? To me, in the moment, it was. I'm going to wear one again when I go in for surgery too, because dying on this hill isn't going to help my kids as much as living to fight another day.
Turns out this whole time I've been terrified of lung cancer it's just been my spleen needing to go.
Judge all you want, just thought I'd mention that even a hardcore motherfucker like me can't always deal in absolutes.
There's a huge difference between being made to wear one on a handful of occasions (I wore one once when I took my mother to the hospital myself) and wearing one on a daily basis then taking it off once and telling every body you're a hero.
I get it. I felt smaller when I had to put it on. I didn't like it at all. People act amazed that I've made it through this by simply not complying but I'm amazed that they have managed to muzzle up with seemingly no negative psychological effects.
This might piss you off, but I put on a mask for the first time ever yesterday.
It was only for a few minutes, and yes it felt wrong as fuck, but it happened.
On the plus side I finally got some testing done at the hospital I had been putting off for over a year. Was it worth it? To me, in the moment, it was. I'm going to wear one again when I go in for surgery too, because dying on this hill isn't going to help my kids as much as living to fight another day.
Turns out this whole time I've been terrified of lung cancer it's just been my spleen needing to go.
Judge all you want, just thought I'd mention that even a hardcore motherfucker like me can't always deal in absolutes.
There's a huge difference between being made to wear one on a handful of occasions (I wore one once when I took my mother to the hospital myself) and wearing one on a daily basis then taking it off once and telling every body you're a hero.
Maybes I'm just feeling defensive because it felt like a betrayal of my own beliefs.
This is why CrsCrpr's message is important.
At least you're honest with yourself, and willing to be honest on a public forum. Nothing wrong with getting your blood flowing to wake up.
I get it. I felt smaller when I had to put it on. I didn't like it at all. People act amazed that I've made it through this by simply not complying but I'm amazed that they have managed to muzzle up with seemingly no negative psychological effects.