David Crowley was truly a genius, and the documentary really gave us as much of a finished product as we could have hoped for. I think if he were still alive today, his movie would have gotten huge funding and be a popular touchstone, a modern 1984. I also think it would have served as a major intellectual bridge between the Q/anon/based population and mainstream culture- the biggest redpill without being called that. His death, therefore, was a huge loss to the world and human progress.

All that said, he was a troubled genius, as so many are. He had it all going for him, a beautiful family, a wife who was truly a partner, a grand and unique vision that surely would have brought him influence/money/fame, and usually seemed at peace with just having that. He wanted to spread awareness and consciousness for the benefit of all, not just himself. Unfortunately, hardcore military service in our misguided ME ventures created a dark side in him. It would tell him none of it was good enough, nothing he did mattered, that life is cheap and sometimes a bad joke. From what the documentary portrays, his wife likely had severe mental issues of her own, and David’s mind was fertile ground for shared delusion.

A large dose of irrational paranoia was likely a large part of his PTSD as well. Given his beliefs, actions, mission to communicate his message- secret, almost all-powerful groups controlling the masses by any means necessary- I’d guess he considered himself a target of those forces. Many who know his story believe he was in fact a casualty of those forces- not unreasonable if you’re of a similar mindset.

I’ve seriously considered the possibility, and there are pretty extensive resources aside from the documentary- his diary, their recorded Iphone videos, David’s own extensive chronicling of his life in writing and on video)- to review and come to your own conclusions. My conclusion is that after a long struggle, he and his wife came to a decision to leave this world together, and having done so, David decided to go out cinematically. With little motive, a unsolvable mystery (“allahu akhbar” in blood on his wall), and grist for suspicions that he was a victim of larger forces.

Sorry for the long post, I really am just a huge fan of David Crowley and know his death was just a huge waste, however it happened. I also think it’s a very strong cautionary tale about being too far in the rabbit hole- it can chew up even those of us who seemingly have everything in life.

Remember the big picture, but also the small picture- love your family, and keep yourself well. Without that, you’re destined for mission failure.

Thanks for listening and for existing as a place to post this in peace. Be well and kind to each other-