I am mom of a little girl. We go everywhere we can with no mask. (I live in a deep red state, unfortunately everyone in my area is still a mask zombie even with the mandate lifted). When I go to the grocery store, I am usually STILL the only one, along with my daughter, not wearing a mask, and what boggles my mind most of all are all the MEN who keep going along with this bullshit!!!
MEN PLEASE STAND UP!!! If you are still wearing your mask, take it off!! If you haven’t been wearing one, kudos!!! I’ve been chased out of Walmart, harassed in stores, and yet I won’t wear it. 90% of the time no one says anything. BE BRAVE!!!
Will pray for you brother. Had a roommate that literally had to be locked out of everything as a way to keep him on the straight and narrow. It was hard in the beginning, but in the end he got part of his life back. I don't have a TV or watch movies - they seem to trigger. I have ad blockers and filters set on high. Internet accounts have to be locked with someone else having the password and histories need to be wiped clean - same with the phones. I know it is all a pain but it can help from having the stuff creep in there. Don't give it an entry point. Having accountability can help because this is an area where willpower alone is hard to muster up - and it takes diligence and lots of prayer. Find your strength in other Godly men and in God when you are weak.
It sounds like you are taking the first steps in revealing what the enemy wants you to keep secret and hide. Stay at it and keep up the fight. We not only need to do this for ourselves, but for everyone.