I'm a former recovering pornography addict and I've been fighting my imaginations and failing miserably to fight my passions and I fear my ever drawing closer to backsliding and I'm too embarrassed to bring it up to other Christians and I've found nothing but love and encouragement on this board. Please someone pray for me? I've been caught in the lust of the flesh and I just feel broken and cast down and feel the desire to hang in the towel. My failure of self control has left me contrite and ashamed and I don't know where else to go. I can't see how Jesus can have patience on me when that's a sin I used to be a repeat offender in and I've slipped quite a bit these past few months with no one to confide and confess to. Not the physical act of porn but the imaginations and self gratification and masturbatory nature thereof. It's an addiction I've been very open with with fellow believers in my circle but given my recent slipping backwards I'm just too ashamed to say it to them. Forgive the shitpost please. I just don't even feel Jesus wants to put up with me anymore. Which I know is a lie but when you fall into sin it's hard to believe He can forgive an offense been forgiven before. Apologies if for any unsightliness I may have caused by sharing.
You're viewing a single comment thread. View all comments, or full comment thread.
Comments (134)
sorted by:
i used to have a porn problem, i went from that to 1 year of monk mode(brahmacharya), something that changed my life forever.i learned how to harness our creative energy through sexual abstinence, Started off of a goal of 1 month no jerking off or porn/nudity. one month went by and my anxiety, depression and low energy was cured. EVERY two weeks you do not blow your load it will be absorbed into your blood stream. thus creating superior brain cells and muscle fibers. I think this is something every man should attempt in his life. I was so depressed before i started that journey , then i stumbled on ''no fap'' which i like to call Monk mode, i practiced something a little different , an anceint indian practice called ''brahmacharya'' you can watch videos on this. during that 12 months of brahmacharya i only jerked off one time, and had 2 wet dreams. the first couple weeks where the hardest. my confidence was through the roof, i made better eye contact with women and people in general. i am in a good relationship now thanks to that journey i took, some times i miss how i felt but being in love is also nice. if i ever become single again i will do another 6-12 months of this. it is life changing and will give you the momentum you seek. Captiain sinbad from youtube helped me on my journey , listen to his wisdom https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VeNgbBERNl4
Thank you, I will watch it. God bless you in Jesus name, sibling. Amen