My friend. Make no mistake. God isn't waiting for you to be good enough. You won't be. That's what grace is. Giving someone what they don't deserve. The cross of Jesus Christ is free to you. You misunderstand; you do not need to be perfect to be forgiven of your sin and to be born again. You do however need to understand that in order to be forgiven you have to repent (confess and turn from the faults that separate us from God) and turn to Jesus Christ to be forgiven of the sin He paid for us. The transaction does not count if you don't come to Him. Once you have been forgiven you have to then begin the process of sanctification; i.e. you cannot stay as you were because what you were got you in the place you were in to begin with. The hard part of the faith is that you must be willing to admit you needed Jesus Christto begin with. You're free to choose as you will but it does you well in the long run to know that the faith does have requirements of us. (I.e sin no more).
When you're read He will be there, ready and willing, to have you, Moose.
Be well and I pray God the Holy Spirit falls upon you and you see in yourself what He sees. In Jesus name amen.
Bold question incoming:
If you yourself can see your limited intellect via Einstein whom was just another man like you;
Do you really believe your merits are good enough to please a perfect God?
If the answer is no... then the gospel gives you the answer you seek regarding the necessity for Holiness to enter heaven. You simply aren't Holy enough and neded a substitute to pay for the wrongs you committed. Hence Jesus Christ, whom was perfect and suffered the punishment you deserved, like us all, and offered a chance to accept that gift and walk new in the Holy Spirit to then put to death the things that made you liable for punishment.
If the answer is yes then the gospel of Jesus Christ will never a make sense to you because your own moral code dictates whether you deserve heaven or not.
All this is in love fren.
Did you know that was the game fear caiaphas had hence the guards being there to begin with?
Similarly to u/OuttaMyAshes said
Quite plainly the bigger question is this:
Do you believe what the Bible says or not? (Not to be crude but this is the bigger question I believe)
If you don't, what impedes that?
Much love to you fren. May God bless you with the Holy Spirit unto wisdom and faith. In Jesus name amen.
I love everything you're on to, fren. To take a chance to give you another opinion that isn't mocking but true loving concern for your wellbeing in the eyes of God. Deuteronomy 18 expresses God's heart regarding observing (holding religious weight and obedience) over the times, witchcraft, enchantments, magic, divination (Tarot cards fit here), and necromancy, etc. He is very solemnly against such things. Now normally I would let things go and not put this on you, fren. But again; for loving concern, I must. I don't know your belief system and you are free to believe it if it's contrary to the Bible (just so you know I'm not trying to rob you of such). However, I think it pertinent I tell you anyways on the off chance you ever give Jesus Christ a go. I pray the Holy Ghost may one day lead you to Him in the event you don't already know Him, in Jesus name amen. If you have already confessed Him then as a brother in Christ Jesus to another sibling, I must warn you that such practices are indeed wicked and contrary to God.
I hope you read my words knowing they were written with loving compassion of the Holy Spirit of God in Jesus Christ to you ward.
All the same, my friend, this was a quality post and definitely things for us all to ponder about. Updoot for you.
May God bless you with temperance of emotion and overall self control in the Holy Spirit, sibling. In Jesus name amen.