I'm a former recovering pornography addict and I've been fighting my imaginations and failing miserably to fight my passions and I fear my ever drawing closer to backsliding and I'm too embarrassed to bring it up to other Christians and I've found nothing but love and encouragement on this board. Please someone pray for me? I've been caught in the lust of the flesh and I just feel broken and cast down and feel the desire to hang in the towel. My failure of self control has left me contrite and ashamed and I don't know where else to go. I can't see how Jesus can have patience on me when that's a sin I used to be a repeat offender in and I've slipped quite a bit these past few months with no one to confide and confess to. Not the physical act of porn but the imaginations and self gratification and masturbatory nature thereof. It's an addiction I've been very open with with fellow believers in my circle but given my recent slipping backwards I'm just too ashamed to say it to them. Forgive the shitpost please. I just don't even feel Jesus wants to put up with me anymore. Which I know is a lie but when you fall into sin it's hard to believe He can forgive an offense been forgiven before. Apologies if for any unsightliness I may have caused by sharing.
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I understand your point of view. I do. But it's something that is attached to my porn addiction and as Jesus mentioned lusting for a woman that does not belong to me with my eyes is the equivalent to adultery in my heart which is in fact sin. If I was desiring my wife that would be different. I'm not married nor do I have a potential spouse. As a fellow anon even said. I know sex is inherently good. God made it. Just as he made alcohol and Marijuana and all other such herbs and medicines. The crime isn't the substance nor the sex. The crime is in the twisting of its Holy intent and warping it for self interest. I mean no disrespect, friend. I just know as the Spirit has taught me in the scriptures that lusting for any woman outside of marriage is indeed sin. Because the Epistles teach that sex is owed to the spouse out of love and service and a desire to fulfill the other's needs and bond physically and spiritually and procreate. The Bible says the husband's body is not his own but his wife's. And the wife's body is not her own but her husband's. If you aren't married you do not own anyone's body. And if you're saved by Jesus Christ you don't even own yourself ya know?
So my inclination for posting is that I am a single 26 year old man that needed reproved, prayer, and confession before my brethren as my Bible tells me to do. And thankfully from all these fellow brethren and sisters in Jesus Christ. I have been refreshed to start again and sin no more. I'm grateful for your words friend but I must protest them for they are not well set with my conscience which I pray in Jesus name is blessed of the Holy Ghost.
God bless you in Jesus name, friend and thank you for encouraging me not to kick myself into a rut i cannot escape. Amen