I don't claim to know either. I do know that Q trusts God and Scripture as legitimate. In case you missed the first comment Christ follower does not equal religious. Christ came and declared religion obsolete through His sacrifice. Could you also be limiting your perspective in your own judgements about existential reality? Christ made the human relationship with God about loving The Creator and His creation as yourself. Imperfections are forgiven and the only thing expected is an open hand to relieve grace.

I recommend Soren Kierkegaard as a good starting place to help you understand my perspective. Humans have an infinite reality we must wrestle with to avoid existential angst and dread. Jesus makes that reality both easy and hard. Easy because you do nothing, Christ chose to save you. Hard because now that you are free to act how you wish, He asks you to choose love and pay forward Jesus' propitiation every day.