I not long ago was empty and afraid, much like you are speaking..today I am so full of the goodness of life, it reminds of the verse in the Bible that says my cup runneth over...so at that point you have no choice but to give it away and spread it everywhere... My life changed with one prayer... over and over all day, no matter what is happening.... this is the simple prayer “ dear Lord, I have tried and tried and tried to do right and to please you, but I have failed over and over again, I have learned that I cannot do this alone, I need you Lord will you help? Will you teach me? Teacher, will you teach me your ways? He has given me the “eyes to see and the ears to hear” he is every where and in everything always... if you can “see and hear” and know his presence. Then the fear turns into joy and gladness, and love. Turn To him every day, like a small child and say. Daddy I love you. I need you Daddy. Daddy will you please help. This is why he calls us his children.. now I feel like I learn so much every day, the more I learn the more I realized that I don’t know much of anything.. I think it is a never ending loop, I love it, it is perfect. He is Perfect! I just fall, I just stumble and fall, but when I reach up For Daddy’s finger he is always ready to help me up again