No one would judge you about this. Consider how your statements try to justify the activity as something outside your control. It is with in your control, even as it is difficult to resist. How many of the people in the videos are victims of conditioning and how many are forced because of circumstances. To view it is to enable it to continue in a small way. To view it is to allow yourself to be subject to manipulation and possibly conditioning yourself. To not view is literally removing a hook of the DS from your life. Stand strong and do not give in to this filth that degrades you, the people in the video and those whom participate, willingly or not, in its creation. By viewing this one is in danger of being hypocritical by saying they resist and oppose an evil element while at the same time partake of its drug. It is true as is said every person in the videos is someone’s child/parent/sibling/spouse. When one consumes the videos they spread the filth and continue enabling the exploitation of the people that are trapped in this.