It says a lot about your character not only to rethink hard-set beliefs, but to publicly admit to a change of mind. That said, I pray God reveals Himself to you in a powerful, personal way so that you come to truly believe. These crazy times, and what's yet to come, I believe will turn many hearts to God.

So much could be said about what begins in Rome, but instead you are looking for the good. And so you will find it.

Understand and kudos to your maturing mindset. Don’t allow the folly’s, foibles and misdeeds of men who have organized religion into examples of evil stop your quest for Truth? Remember that Christ taught us about love and the purity of God’s grace. His love for mankind is beyond belief...purely unconditional. If you want to understand it, just find a private time and place for you and start simply praying. Then ask Him to show you a sign. Thank Him for your health and existence. Know that you were put here for a reason, and He makes no mistakes. Let it all come from your heart WITH INTENT. Be prepared for miracles, no matter how small. He shows you sometimes through nature too...very symbolic. Let the seed grow now that it’s planted fren. -Peace ?