In 2012 I had my first encounter with Christ. I'll keep it brief but its a very long story. It happened when I forgave my mom for personal stuff. An audible voice cut into my thoughts. "Now you understand my daughter" I heard. And yes it was extremely terrifying at first. A golden light filled the room. It was so intense I collapsed to my knees. I started to cry in terror honestly. I actually thought I was dying but the voice comforted me.
"Please. I'm like a child," I muttered, thinking I was going to die.
"You ARE a child" I heard the voice of God say which confirmed to me that he was actually literally speaking to me. His voice was deep and masculine.
When I asked God to please back off on the intesity, it did and honestly we were able to have an entire conversation. I was told Jesus IS God. I asked why I was so depressed all the time. "You forgot that I love you" he said.
Two years Later I had another intense experience but this time I was given a vision. Gid used symbolism that I could relate to and totally understand. It was political and had to do with the deep state and Obama but at the time I was not awake yet so it was confusing. But once things started happening in reality, I understood what God was trying to tell me. It's because of God that I am fully awake and unvaxxed today. It is because of God that I am fully saved and have eternal life with Jesus Christ in Heaven. I love him with all my heart mind and soul and I don't know why he picked me to speak to and to basically personally save. He told me you "must have faith" and now it's stronger than ever. Sorry for the long post. I just wanted to share that with you all :). God bless you all!
I've had a similar experience, not quite as intense as yours, but all the same Jesus spoke directly into my mind. It was a voice that was not my own and it shocked me until I realized Who it was.
I had been sinning badly, kept falling back into old sins, and I felt so defeated and so disgusted with myself that I felt myself falling into despair and thinking, "I am filth, how can I be saved?"
Jesus then spoke into my mind, "Daughter, you are loved!" It had to be Jesus because the voice was not my own and I was referred to as "daughter," and not even my own father refers to me as that very often since I'm grown up now.
Those words broke through my heart and soul and I found renewed energy to cast away my old sins, and to stay away from them. So far it's going well.