Oh, Lupinate, I am so sorry. All I can say, in my inadequate way, is that I wish the sharp spires of grief soon erode down to the fond and wonderful memories you both shared. I share the same type of relationship with my husband that you shared with your wife. I am glad you experienced the same joy, and my heart breaks at what you must be experiencing now. I wish you peace and comfort. Know that you were, and still are, Beloved.