Ever since I woke up, the system disinterests me. I haven’t worked in 3 years, (I want to!!! But I can’t find anything interesting enough to slave myself away for.) I’m barely interested in finishing my schooling or going to college. (I’m not a high schooler.) What are some ways I can get interested in life again? Because it is tearing me and my partner apart. He says I am too interested in fringe conspiracies and haven’t been focusing on helping them or myself. It is so hard to just go back to sleep and focus on life anymore. What I’ve found out during the pandemic has sickened me and honestly? It has ruined life in every single way. It is so hard to focus on what I need to do in this life when all we are in this life is slaves to the system. All I want in this life is be happy with my partner, go to work and just live my life.. but our way of life has changed forever. It is so hard to cope. It is so hard to get through this. I have anxiety, depression and BPD. The pandemic has made all of it worse. I can only hope we will come out victorious against our enemies. (Deep State/Illuminati/Luciferian Baby Blood Drinkers or whatever you want to call them.) This is literally BIBLICAL. I feel like I’ve had a spiritual awakening or that God is calling on me to be a warrior of Christ because I see the number 17 every day in everything I do. Anyone else? How do people cope with this madness? I feel like waking up has ruined my life. I can’t simply ignore the knowledge I’ve gained during the pandemic. I used to scoff at Hillary being a pedophile, Pizzagate and all of that. But now I can’t go back to sleep, I can’t just ignore all of the lies, deceit, how much they hate humanity, if the vaccine agenda will kill us all, my loved ones, my family. In another life, I’d want to take down the Illuminati. Or die trying. This world is sick. I want to know the truth and the full truth. Are there aliens? Are there demons? Are there angels? Is God real? Is he shining his light on all of us so we can use the light against the forces of darkness? Will Jesus ever come back? Are we Light Bringers? I have so many burning questions.
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I am 22, my birthday was August so yes, pretty young. I have been having trouble waking my loved ones up because they still think it is just a conspiracy and they keep saying they rather focus on working, getting their life together and other things. Totally understandable, but any time I try to speak truth they write it off as conspiracy. But I keep trying. Ugh God I hope I have not embarrassed myself here with my posts. I feel like my latest was just pure fear because of what I’ve heard doctors say about the vaccinated. I freaked out and overreacted, I got really embarrassed and thought I was being dumb so I ended up deleting it. I appreciate the mod asking me if I got what I needed and if I was okay. I got a lot of different answers and I appreciate everyone’s feedback.
I can tell you, in my experience with family and friends alike, you are wasting your precious energy and time. Focus on figuring out what you’d like to do to make yourself happy right now, and the other things in your life will fall into place once you’re happy with YOU.
There’s a saying that words don’t teach, only life experience does. And those you care about will eventually figure it out for themselves as well, or maybe they won’t; but that’s not your business or your responsibility, fren.
I try my hardest though because I don’t want any more of my loved ones to get the death jab. My boyfriend stresses it’s his decision which it is but I’m trying to make him understand even after FDA approval, this vaccine was made by criminals and it is still not safe in my eyes. I pray, so hard, that he does not get the jab at any costs. I worry about my mom. She has been jabbed twice because she’s a CNA. My friends have been jabbed. I will never get it in a thousand life times. I heard a conspiracy that AstraZeneca also patents Adrenochrome. Who the fuck wants a vaccine by a company who patents child’s blood?
Like I said, it’s not your responsibility for someone else’s choices. That’s on him/her; though your heart is in the right place, i.e., concerned for others’ well-being.