i was a girl of aget 15 once too and thought i wanted sex and experiences. took years to realize a lot of what happened to me wasn’t right, i didn’t really want to do things once we got started, or got to a point where i was too scared to say anything, and forcefully made to either continue or do MORE things. the guys of course were older and stronger. u do things at that age because u don’t know any better and everyone else you know is supposedly doing it that’s how the mind of a child works. as a child entering thay situation, u truly don’t think things will take the turns that they can and often do take. you end up trusting this person, oh they want to be intimate with me they must care about me they wouldn’t hurt me!!!

i couldn’t admit i was raped and forced into things (even by long term boyfriends) until i was in my late 20s. i’m barely 30 now. it takes a long time for trauma to settle in or even realize what has been done to you especially when you THOUGHT you wanted it. i knew these situations i had been in made me feel bad, made me scared, hurt me, made me cry after and feel used and dirty, but at that young age i thought that’s just what sex was and how it always is. it took a boyfriend doing it to me and doing self reflection YEARS after the incidents, to really realize this shit is wrong! and when it gets to the parts you don’t want to do or are uncomfortable with or scared of and then held down or forced down and roughly man handled etc…. no that is not consent and that is not what you wanted. it’s scary being young and with someone stronger and older in that setting you’re scared to scream for help or run out of the room or do anything to protect yourself because when you try to stop they get mad and more mean and more forceful and it only gets worse from there. it’s also scary because you know you will get in trouble by parents for being honest about being sexually involved when you still are a child. you have nowhere to turn to really unless you have super understanding parents, but it’s so confusing when you truly think people doing it care about you in some way because you were intimate. girls are wired in such a different way than guys and being physically intimate often in our minds means so much more than it does to men. it’s even worse when you’re young and confused and impressionable! tldr…. you are a still child at 15 period.