To all my friends out there who know what’s really going on… To all my conspiracy theorist friends… Yes, sometimes it’s a curse and not always a blessing to be awake.
Awakening is the most liberating, alienating, excruciating, empowering, lonely, confusing, freeing, frightening, expansive journey.
If you find yourself struggling as you try to process all this insanity, you are not alone.
No one talks about the darkness that accompanies awakening, or the GRIEF. Not only grieving the life and illusions you once had but the realization that almost everything you thought you once knew, is a LIE. The beliefs you’ve held, people you’ve trusted, principles you were taught- ALL LIES.
Shattering illusions is RARELY an enjoyable experience. There is a considerable amount of discomfort that comes with growth and the grieving process doesn’t stop there.
With these newfound realizations, you then find yourself grieving all over again.
Grieving the loss of many relationships with people who just don’t “get it”.
Feeling alone; being ridiculed and shamed, not only by the masses but for many of you, your very own family and friends too. Feeling like you no longer have much in common with the people you are surrounded by.
Struggling with carrying on bullshit, shallow conversations that lack substance with those who are still fast asleep.
Even feeling disconnected from your entire support system because they can’t see what you see. Some even grieve the loss of their ignorance- because “ignorance is bliss” and reality is harsh.
Awakening can be a lonely road and you will often find yourself journeying alone.
There is no way to sugarcoat it- Awakening to the realities of this world is brutal. It will have you running through the entire gamut of human emotions.
You have to master the art of diving down the darkest of rabbit holes only to come out and still function in daily life, and that’s a skill people don’t talk about enough.
Some of you are struggling with feeling disconnected from family and friends, it’s as though they exist in another world.
Please know you are not alone, and not only are you not alone, you have an entire tribe standing with you. We may be separated by miles, but we are DEEPLY connected; in purpose and in spirit.
Thank you for your comments, and I am glad that things are working well for you, but everyone is different. Some are fighters. And some are not. One does not have more value than the other. Power to you if your solution works for you. Cheers.
I am a Canadian too. Things are not headed in a good direction in Canada (and the world for that matter) given the "re-election" of Trudeau. I too was living a life (for many years) "without Jesus" and I was filled with anger, hate, impatience, sin and hopelessness. Finally, I got out a Bible that my Mom had given me many years before and started reading it. When I began to understand how much God loves us, I prayed to Him that He would heal my broken life, wipe away the sin (and it's guilt and shame) and set me on a new course in life. I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Saviour. That doesn't mean I don't have any problems - I do but I ask Him to help me with them and to direct me. I try to trust and obey Him.
What I can tell you is:
I sincerely hope and pray that your life's journey will find and accept the love that God has for you. If I can ever be of any assistance in that quest, do not hesitate to direct message me. I am praying for you, for Canada and for this troubled world. God bless you.