what if Gods wish and the meaning of life is to go through exactly those changes and learn about ethics aka difference between good and evil (actions and thoughts /feelings? as long as you manage to do so in your lifetime , you can't be too late. it is also not too late for you to learn true forgiveness . don't focus on others , worry about your own defects like anger , hate, resentment etc. because when your time comes itll be all about you, not "the normies".