I am sorry you are suffering and in pain. I DO know how awful it is to worry about and lose people you care about, because I have, in fact, experienced plenty of loss and suffering.

Still mourning my husband who was the love and light of my life. He died in 2016. Lost my mother last year and my stepfather in January. Many friends and family members said I was a crazy consp theorist for talking about many things which are now no longer theory but conspiracy fact. But they still don't talk to me.

I got my first red-pill way back in 2001 with 9/11. Then in 2003 my late husband dragged me down so many rabbit holes I darn near had a nervous breakdown. Back then there was no Q, no plan, no hope at all. I went through my dark night (more like dark YEARS) of the soul. That resulted in major adrenal burnout, thyroid issues, candida and I very nearly had a nervous breakdown.

So your assumptions about me couldn't be more off-base.

The reality is that we are quite literally at war. Not with tanks in the street, but war nonetheless. And there are always casualties in any war. Sad, but unavoidable.

I pulled my hair out trying to get friends and family to just LOOK at the massive jab data from independent docs and researchers instead of trusting MSM. But finally I had to let go of the frustration and accept that many people I care/cared about were not going to make it. They simply aren't capable of understanding the bigger picture of this battle between light and dark.

So I do what I can, drop red pills on anyone who will listen, and after a life of distrust in organized religion, I have found a surprisingly unshakeable faith in a Divine Creator and a peace and calmness that keeps me going now. And my dogs make me laugh and keep my heart full of love that helps me stay grounded in gratitude and joy despite all the horrors happening daily.

Yes, I feel tremendous GRATITUDE just to be alive at this moment in time, to witness the unveiling at last of the evil that has been enslaving humanity.

I hope you can find some peace and acceptance as well. Again, I am sorry for whatever pain and loss you have suffered.

But you aren't alone. We all just handle things differently.