Dunno where you are in your spiritual life but the best thing to do would be to be honest and simply ask Him to reveal Himself to you. Second thing would be to give-up sinning including pornography, gluttony, greed, and things like that. Sin and especially impurity cuts us off from God and the light of His truth. Third thing to do would be to feed the mind and soul so reading the bible is good but you also need good commentary from intelligent individuals. I'm Catholic so I listen to channels like 'sensus fidelium' and 'regina prophetarum' but I'm sure there are other Christian scholars and pastors that could provide good commentary.
Dunno where you are in your spiritual life but the best thing to do would be to be honest and simply ask Him to reveal Himself to you. Second thing would be to give-up sinning including pornography, gluttony, greed, and things like that. Sin and especially impurity cuts us off from God and the light of His truth. Third thing to do would be to feed the mind and soul so reading the bible is good but you also need good commentary from intelligent individuals. I'm Catholic so I listen to channels like 'sensus fidelium' and 'regina prophetarum' but I'm sure there are other Christian scholars and pastors that could provide good commentary.