Haven’t been able to get through to the antibody clinic yet; while I know that the survival rate of this thing is incredibly high, I am scared. I’ve got asthma, and some endocrine dysfunction that I’m worried will make this far tougher to get over.
I’m also scared I may have given it to my parents, who have blood pressure and kidney problems. Haven’t been around anyone who has tested positive, but here we are.
Please pray my family and I make it through this unscathed. I know my odds are good, and that God’s got this but I’m still a little terrified.
My faith in God is definitely struggling, I won’t lie. Really fighting to find Him with all of the craziness happening in the world and in my healing journey.
But thanks for the reminder.
I've never understood when people link their ability to have "faith in God" to whether bad things occur in our material world. It should be clear if you've been exposed to any history (or current events) at all that man is allowed to be infinitely cruel to other fellow humans. In other words, God doesn't intervene to the harming of children, nasty stuff during wars, etc.. My faith lies in God recognizing when our souls come to him after death. Life is not fair. My faith is that after death it is. (That being said, I'm hypocritical because I still pray to him that he helps us!)
My struggle hasn't been faith in God. It's been my faith in my fellow man's lack of humanity (and intelligence).
God does help; he creates miracles. And he sent his Son to save us.
I understand what you’re saying. I think I’m just praying God overcomes the lack of understanding and knowledge around me, and heals me in the best way that he can.