I have a special needs son who I thank the Lord has been very very healthy. However my father was born into a family that was very abusive, I read his journals after his death (he died when I was 7, read his journals at 15). He struggled with all sorts of mental health issues, abuse like I never could have imagined, homosexuality, etc until he died at the age of 37. My mom saw his counselor not long after his death who said he was doing great and the counselor had never met anyone outside of prison who had endured the nightmares my father had and could be a good loving person. He never hit us, never could. I was always so upset about losing my father, I still get jealous of people who have theirs and I’m 44. I always wondered why! My mom told me maybe 10 years ago she believes the Lord looked at my father when his time came and said “you have endured and proved yourself, you don’t have to suffer anymore and can return home”
Your son gained a body and was a perfect human being, no faults, no spiritual imperfections, no sin, just like my little boy. He can’t be tempted by Satan or his minions, your son must have been a very elect soul that was protected in an imperfect body to fulfill a preordained mission in this life. He touched you and I’m sure so many others in his short life, and returned home in perfect glory unblemished by sin and no more pain. The ones here are the ones who hurt from the loss, it sucks. I’ve lost too many loved ones in my early life to not sometimes have bitter feelings about it. I went through counseling a few years back and I learned that our sorrow and pain is the price we pay for the love we have and the joy of knowing the time we had. I can’t understand the pain of losing a child, I can’t imagine how unbearable it is and my heart aches for you. However, having lost as a young child the opposite way and I can tell you time helps. Being the mom of a special needs child I truly feel you were chosen specially to take care of of him and it sounds like you loved him like no one else could but God. My prayers are with you
Ok, now I’m going to cry. As parents we want that for them as well, I hope you can find peace, I feel there isn’t much more I can say. Saying sorry for your loss seems so inadequate but I’ll pray for your peace and comfort.
I have a special needs son who I thank the Lord has been very very healthy. However my father was born into a family that was very abusive, I read his journals after his death (he died when I was 7, read his journals at 15). He struggled with all sorts of mental health issues, abuse like I never could have imagined, homosexuality, etc until he died at the age of 37. My mom saw his counselor not long after his death who said he was doing great and the counselor had never met anyone outside of prison who had endured the nightmares my father had and could be a good loving person. He never hit us, never could. I was always so upset about losing my father, I still get jealous of people who have theirs and I’m 44. I always wondered why! My mom told me maybe 10 years ago she believes the Lord looked at my father when his time came and said “you have endured and proved yourself, you don’t have to suffer anymore and can return home” Your son gained a body and was a perfect human being, no faults, no spiritual imperfections, no sin, just like my little boy. He can’t be tempted by Satan or his minions, your son must have been a very elect soul that was protected in an imperfect body to fulfill a preordained mission in this life. He touched you and I’m sure so many others in his short life, and returned home in perfect glory unblemished by sin and no more pain. The ones here are the ones who hurt from the loss, it sucks. I’ve lost too many loved ones in my early life to not sometimes have bitter feelings about it. I went through counseling a few years back and I learned that our sorrow and pain is the price we pay for the love we have and the joy of knowing the time we had. I can’t understand the pain of losing a child, I can’t imagine how unbearable it is and my heart aches for you. However, having lost as a young child the opposite way and I can tell you time helps. Being the mom of a special needs child I truly feel you were chosen specially to take care of of him and it sounds like you loved him like no one else could but God. My prayers are with you
Ok, now I’m going to cry. As parents we want that for them as well, I hope you can find peace, I feel there isn’t much more I can say. Saying sorry for your loss seems so inadequate but I’ll pray for your peace and comfort.