Be honest with yourself and God. A lot of people take the story of Job one of two ways. One, "look how bad Job had it. Your life could be worse." This is wrong. Everyone's lives suck in one form or another. Some may seem to get it best, but life is about taking our lot in life and making something of it. It's not about comparing pain and competing in the pain Olympics. That being said, you "win". There is no pain greater in this life than losing your children. Does not matter when in life. It's terrible.
Job interpretation 2 is that when Job finally asked God, "Hey man, what the hell?" God says, "Where were you when I created everything?". People take this interpretation as God putting Job in his place, which is true, but there's a key moment that often gets overlooked. While Job didn't get a satisfactory answer, he felt peace and tranquility. All of a sudden the world made sense to him again and he was able to move on from the hardship. But this only happened until AFTER he went before God and expressed his true feelings.
You will not grow with God if you are not truthful with Him and He wants us to be truthful in everything. Even if blasphemy is on our heart, he'd rather we express it than not (and to clarify, being angry with God doesn't always equal blasphemy). To seek truth is to seek God and so when we pretend we're okay, when we lie to ourselves that we aren't angry with God, we start to resent Him because someone put in our ear that we should be so lucky to even know God. While that may end up being true, He is not an insecure baby. Exactly the opposite. I know this because when I went so far as to tell God "fuck you" He never killed me. Instead He let me wonder and slowly we came to an understanding.
I still have my disagreements on things. But that is the awesome part: you are allowed to disagree. He will tell us everything when the time comes. But not until there is repentance and that can't happen until your heart is "purged" of anger and that happens when you are truthful with Him. You are more likely to stumble away if you live a façade of trying to hide your true feelings, whereas if you tell Him you are mad, He will help you through.
Be honest with yourself and God. A lot of people take the story of Job one of two ways. One, "look how bad Job had it. Your life could be worse." This is wrong. Everyone's lives suck in one form or another. Some may seem to get it best, but life is about taking our lot in life and making something of it. It's not about comparing pain and competing in the pain Olympics. That being said, you "win". There is no pain greater in this life than losing your children. Does not matter when in life. It's terrible.
Job interpretation 2 is that when Job finally asked God, "Hey man, what the hell?" God says, "Where were you when I created everything?". People take this interpretation as God putting Job in his place, which is true, but there's a key moment that often gets overlooked. While Job didn't get a satisfactory answer, he felt peace and tranquility. All of a sudden the world made sense to him again and he was able to move on from the hardship. But this only happened until AFTER he went before God and expressed his true feelings.
You will not grow with God if you are not truthful with Him and He wants us to be truthful in everything. Even if blasphemy is on our heart, he'd rather we express it than not (and to clarify, being angry with God doesn't always equal blasphemy). To seek truth is to seek God and so when we pretend we're okay, when we lie to ourselves that we aren't angry with God, we start to resent Him because someone put in our ear that we should be so lucky to even know God. While that may end up being true, He is not an insecure baby. Exactly the opposite. I know this because when I went so far as to tell God "fuck you" He never killed me. Instead He let me wonder and slowly we came to an understanding.
I still have my disagreements on things. But that is the awesome part: you are allowed to disagree. He will tell us everything when the time comes. But not until there is repentance and that can't happen until your heart is "purged" of anger and that happens when you are truthful with Him. You are more likely to stumble away if you live a façade of trying to hide your true feelings, whereas if you tell Him you are mad, He will help you through.