Please don’t if it’s on your mind. We are here if you need to talk. But to answer that question, only God can. You’re not supposed to take what God gave you (your life). But in the case of Judas, I don’t think he went to hell. Christ knew what he’d do. Reality for us is, there is always a choice.

And usually there is a way out of any situation, unless you’re in a forced position, like jail, captured, or about to be killed/executed.

But if you’re not in a forced position and able to make a choice, chose life, and figure an option. When you can’t think of an option yourself, ask for help. But make the choice to accept an option given that doesn’t lead to your loss of life.