A part of me wishes I had never woken up. It's all so tiring sometimes. I'm surrounded by sheep and cowards. I don't even know what I'm trying to say. I'm tired.
EDIT: Thank you, to everyone, for your words of encouragement. Last night, my mind was spinning, and I couldn't find the right words. I'm clearer now, so let me elaborate.
Yesterday, I took a stand. I stood and loudly proclaimed that this has gone too far. The scamdemic nonsense has to stop, and I refused to wear a mask. It's a small thing, I know, but the brainwashed masses need to see people standing up. A friend and co-worker who was with me, a man who I thought to be strong and who I assumed would stand with me, folded. He meekly put his mask on and said nothing. It was immensely disheartening. I just needed to vent to some people that would understand. Thank you, and God bless you all.
After 12+ years of my wife thinking I was insane, the past 3 years she is fully awakened. Now her family is beginning to wake up. All of our neighbors are waking up. I don't mind being their lighthouse - been doing this for 20+ years.
However, when you feel frustrated, tired, mentally exhausted... there is no shame in taking a break and recharging. Even if you only come back part time. There is no going back to sleep. Even if you could, you'd just be pretending and you would hate every second of it.
Take a trip. Go on a long hike. Enjoy some wine by a fire. Go to the beach and drink 4 margaritas. Whatever it takes to let your mind spin down... We all need that every so often.