So this is a serious question/request. I fear I may be very distantly related to one of the "royal" families of old. It kinda makes me sick to be honest. It would probably cause me emotional harm if I am indeed distantly related to the illuminati. I don't want evil blood.
If it matters, it's one of the Italian Houses. There's a few popes and cardinals with the maiden name in my family. I haven't bothered searching yet but I already feel down about it.
There must be some records.it and no one cares if you search it. If it's as scary as you think then it's not like your existence eludes them.