Something like 90% of attempted suicides (that is, they survived) report instant regret. All it does is certify failure permanently. Surface ugliness (which may only be in your own mind because of your general hopelessness) fades away with a smile. Really, think of how people got prettier or uglier as you got to know them better. You sound as though you feel getting laid would solve all your problems and it will be as gratifying as porn actors make it look. They are actors, acting, and they have physical problems from their job. Find a different group to admire. Better, stay out of fantasy land altogether. You need real human company. This would be a good time to meet new people at a honkening. Listen to their stories instead of ruminating on your own. And get a puppy.
Something like 90% of attempted suicides (that is, they survived) report instant regret. All it does is certify failure permanently. Surface ugliness (which may only be in your own mind because of your general hopelessness) fades away with a smile. Really, think of how people got prettier or uglier as you got to know them better. You sound as though you feel getting laid would solve all your problems and it will be as gratifying as porn actors make it look. They are actors, acting, and they have physical problems from their job. Find a different group to admire. Better, stay out of fantasy land altogether. You need real human company. This would be a good time to meet new people at a honkening. Listen to their stories instead of ruminating on your own. And get a puppy.