You know I complained about stuff I don't like or which makes me disappointed, some of the stuff that comes across this board.
Well, I got to tell you, I just read through all three replies (like I was ripping into a box of cornflakes after a 10 day fast) and I'm really blown over. Your replies are what I LOVE MOST about this board. Really awesome _ I'm kind a lit up now _ Yeah, I can be very emotionally charged at times.
Anyway, there's a lot in the replies, but most of all (what I personally like most) is that you really come across as who you are, and your sharing something with me about who you are, how you think and why you think like you do. It's so awesome, because here's the thing. We read lines of text - a headline here, a comment there - and we often (i'm generalizing here) come away with conclusions and impressions that are really, really off. By which I mean, at least I certainly do this - I come away with an idea about a person - I'm very energetically inclined and get a sense of the energies through the words and expressions - I'm also a linguist - but it's really only when effort is made that sometimes you a can transcend those initial impressions, and get a fuller sense.
There are a bunch of things you've written that I'd like to respond to. I mean, I don;t know; I also sense who much you don't really know about me (how could you), but at a minimum, I'm really chuffed at the time and effort you've made to reply.
So, without going into to much meta-analysis, I'll try to respond naturally to a few things.
Yeah, I DO have a powerful sense of empathy and sympathy, and have had since young. However, I have also lived with a really crazy level of anger in my heart a lot of my life. It's really only in the last few years that God has begun to show me and teach me about this. I would keep so much locked down (and, perhaps, suppressed by the sorrow and other things) that when my anger came out, whew. Total blaze. Never violent (thankfully), at least, never expressed in physical violence again anyone, but certain emotional 'violence', basically like a massive raging storm.
Maybe a little hulk-like. And, it always felt deeply justified, because I was coming from a place of righteousness (I believed) and always with an intent to see the right thing happened. I would get so frustrated when I felt people were ignoring their responsibility to be good, to do right, to sacrifice themselves instead of sacrificing others for their own comfort. Really, like a hurricane, emotionally.
Only in the last two years has God revealed to me how much trauma and difficulty this created for my family, who I love profoundly and powerfully.
So I've been learning where this comes from, and what I have been in denial of, such that I could not even recognize how I felt.
I'm intense in my observations of humans, and can pick up a LOT of stuff, and am normally a very calming, supportive kind of person. But when I lose it, man, I rage as if I'd gone supernova. Which is NOT very often.
I mention all this to say, boy oh boy, if I get really triggered, when I think of evil, or what people have been doing to my people (the people of my state are MY people) then, I go lit. So, anyway, yeah, no, I'm certainly not a sad sack or one of those "oh, can't we all just get along?" type of people. But anyway. More next...
"I spose it's not entirely fair to put someone through a little hoop of fire before I deign them worthy of a detailed response."
hehehe. Nah, it's fair as. Sounds like a solid strategy.
I think I'm like you. I like engaging, but I love engaging when people come back and make the effort to work through the muck to get to the gold. That's where all the gold is, imo. not on the surface. It's under the dirt, the much and stuff. Some people simply want to pick the flowers and the nice stuff growing in the soil, and don't want to ge their hands dirty, but in my experience, the real gold is where you dig. If it's on the surface, there's a reasonable likelihood that some of its just fool's gold.
Linguist: Fluent in 3 languages, semi-fluent in others. Occupation: translation. So, translating Q, for example, and translating God, for example, is where the real action is, for me. Creating bridges across differences in thought, ideas, expressions, aka 'language'.
" If I get sad, I fall down a bottomless well and can't get back out."
Hahah. I knew it! That's why you got attack skills. You're a sensie. I'm glad. Protect yourself, as if God thought you are precious (he does!).
Interesting to hear about your mum. You know, around may last year, God triggered off some dynamite in my .... self ... that had been laying around for decades. Really, really good stuff, major shifts. Still working through that. But a really big part of the process has been a book that I was put on to. "It Didn't Start with You: How Inherited Family Trauma Shapes Who We Are and How to End the Cycle". Helped me to find out that a lot of the stuff I'd been carrying since the year 0 was inherited and connected to the grandparents I never knew (my mother's parents). Recommended to any person, really. Big leaps in this field, also in the last 5-10 years. We're finally figuring out that we are more than just "me" - that we're part of a much bigger framework, and we're all interconnected.
OK. What do I say?
You know I complained about stuff I don't like or which makes me disappointed, some of the stuff that comes across this board.
Well, I got to tell you, I just read through all three replies (like I was ripping into a box of cornflakes after a 10 day fast) and I'm really blown over. Your replies are what I LOVE MOST about this board. Really awesome _ I'm kind a lit up now _ Yeah, I can be very emotionally charged at times.
Anyway, there's a lot in the replies, but most of all (what I personally like most) is that you really come across as who you are, and your sharing something with me about who you are, how you think and why you think like you do. It's so awesome, because here's the thing. We read lines of text - a headline here, a comment there - and we often (i'm generalizing here) come away with conclusions and impressions that are really, really off. By which I mean, at least I certainly do this - I come away with an idea about a person - I'm very energetically inclined and get a sense of the energies through the words and expressions - I'm also a linguist - but it's really only when effort is made that sometimes you a can transcend those initial impressions, and get a fuller sense.
There are a bunch of things you've written that I'd like to respond to. I mean, I don;t know; I also sense who much you don't really know about me (how could you), but at a minimum, I'm really chuffed at the time and effort you've made to reply.
So, without going into to much meta-analysis, I'll try to respond naturally to a few things.
Yeah, I DO have a powerful sense of empathy and sympathy, and have had since young. However, I have also lived with a really crazy level of anger in my heart a lot of my life. It's really only in the last few years that God has begun to show me and teach me about this. I would keep so much locked down (and, perhaps, suppressed by the sorrow and other things) that when my anger came out, whew. Total blaze. Never violent (thankfully), at least, never expressed in physical violence again anyone, but certain emotional 'violence', basically like a massive raging storm.
Maybe a little hulk-like. And, it always felt deeply justified, because I was coming from a place of righteousness (I believed) and always with an intent to see the right thing happened. I would get so frustrated when I felt people were ignoring their responsibility to be good, to do right, to sacrifice themselves instead of sacrificing others for their own comfort. Really, like a hurricane, emotionally.
Only in the last two years has God revealed to me how much trauma and difficulty this created for my family, who I love profoundly and powerfully.
So I've been learning where this comes from, and what I have been in denial of, such that I could not even recognize how I felt.
I'm intense in my observations of humans, and can pick up a LOT of stuff, and am normally a very calming, supportive kind of person. But when I lose it, man, I rage as if I'd gone supernova. Which is NOT very often.
I mention all this to say, boy oh boy, if I get really triggered, when I think of evil, or what people have been doing to my people (the people of my state are MY people) then, I go lit. So, anyway, yeah, no, I'm certainly not a sad sack or one of those "oh, can't we all just get along?" type of people. But anyway. More next...
"I spose it's not entirely fair to put someone through a little hoop of fire before I deign them worthy of a detailed response."
hehehe. Nah, it's fair as. Sounds like a solid strategy.
I think I'm like you. I like engaging, but I love engaging when people come back and make the effort to work through the muck to get to the gold. That's where all the gold is, imo. not on the surface. It's under the dirt, the much and stuff. Some people simply want to pick the flowers and the nice stuff growing in the soil, and don't want to ge their hands dirty, but in my experience, the real gold is where you dig. If it's on the surface, there's a reasonable likelihood that some of its just fool's gold.
Linguist: Fluent in 3 languages, semi-fluent in others. Occupation: translation. So, translating Q, for example, and translating God, for example, is where the real action is, for me. Creating bridges across differences in thought, ideas, expressions, aka 'language'.
" If I get sad, I fall down a bottomless well and can't get back out."
Hahah. I knew it! That's why you got attack skills. You're a sensie. I'm glad. Protect yourself, as if God thought you are precious (he does!).
Interesting to hear about your mum. You know, around may last year, God triggered off some dynamite in my .... self ... that had been laying around for decades. Really, really good stuff, major shifts. Still working through that. But a really big part of the process has been a book that I was put on to. "It Didn't Start with You: How Inherited Family Trauma Shapes Who We Are and How to End the Cycle". Helped me to find out that a lot of the stuff I'd been carrying since the year 0 was inherited and connected to the grandparents I never knew (my mother's parents). Recommended to any person, really. Big leaps in this field, also in the last 5-10 years. We're finally figuring out that we are more than just "me" - that we're part of a much bigger framework, and we're all interconnected.
PS.
Haha. Yeah. Actually, your mornin' is my ev'ning! Evening for you now (?) afternoon for me! Basically, we have the whole ball covered.