Everything we've all been through in our lives has been in preparation for this historical event. I know this. But it doesn't make the pain any easier to bear.
I've had a rough life, even before adulthood. I swore then I'd never be prey again, only now, I'm learning that we've all been pret this whole time.
What's been hardest for me and others like me is that we have all this training that we gathered in our time in, but we can't use it because that would be terroristic and possibly make matters worse for The Plan in general. And it makes me feel helpless, as a result.
I cannot stand to feel helpless. I felt that way as a child being sexually abused and swore to myself then that I'd find the training to never feel that way again. For a time that worked, but now, I feel helpless again. Like a fucking 8 yr old boy all over again. And it sucks.
Everything we've all been through in our lives has been in preparation for this historical event. I know this. But it doesn't make the pain any easier to bear.
I've had a rough life, even before adulthood. I swore then I'd never be prey again, only now, I'm learning that we've all been pret this whole time.
What's been hardest for me and others like me is that we have all this training that we gathered in our time in, but we can't use it because that would be terroristic and possibly make matters worse for The Plan in general. And it makes me feel helpless, as a result.
I cannot stand to feel helpless. I felt that way as a child being sexually abused and swore to myself then that I'd find the training to never feel that way again. For a time that worked, but now, I feel helpless again. Like a fucking 8 yr old boy all over again. And it sucks.