How bad do you think it really is?
Are we talking: the world is run by pedos bad?
Pedos who are cannibals bad? Adrenochrome?
Or like, they're summoning the demon god Moloch through CERN and getting technology by offering human sacrifices bad?
Do you think the truth would put you in the hospital?
What would you say is the absolute worst case, scariest scenario?
Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst. But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life. 1 Timothy 1:15-16 NIV
https://bible.com/bible/111/1ti.1.15-16.NIV
If you understand the depths of your own sinful nature you will realize NOTHING can shock you, save for unwarranted grace, mercy, and love from the Creator who died in our place for our wickedness.