I really appreciate your insight, fren. Yeah I'm 28 now, been clean from opiates and benzos since October 2019, so it's been a little over 2 years now.

I really like this tidbit you mentioned towards the end, "my life has improved tremendously after I quit relying on my own strength, and began relying on the strength God gives to me".

I like that part alot. It's so true. I've always believed in God, but during that time period I found myself so high on power and abundance, I really did begin to stray away from my humble roots and my relationship with God diminished more than it ever had before, which I feel is truly what led to my own undoing.

For I would not have become so prideful if I maintained my spiritual connection to God and remembered that every gift bestowed upon me, was needed to be embraced as a gift and handled with great care. And the importance of humility was a requirement to ever hope to maintain such power responsibly.

And yeah I feel the same way about Marijuana as you mentioned in that last part. Which is a big reason I never felt guilty about profiting from it, I met many people who were actually being helped significantly from Marijuana, including one of my best friends to this day who suffers from Cyclical vomiting syndrome and only finds relief from extreme nausea by smoking pot every morning and as needed throughout the day.

Shes a really smart, pretty blonde whose one of the few people who remained totally loyal to me as a caring friend both when i became an egotistic, womanizing douchebag who kept sleeping with her sorority sisters 😂 AND also after all my friends moved away, all that weed money dried up, i started doing drugs by myself, stopped socializing and eventually got evicted from my condo.

She's one of two women who's friendship I can genuinely say I valued more than the prospect of sleeping with her... although I definitely would if the timing is right again one day. (I had a chance one time. But she was dating my Pledgemaster who recruited me into the club when I was 18 and he was a senior and I would never betray a loyal friend like that so I had to reject her advances. It still hurts to think about how lol)

It really is true when they say, "The road to hell is paved with good intentions". Anyways, I appreciate the convo fren. You have some valuable insight. 👊🏼