I am a single father of two sons who live with me. I love them and try to provide the best for them in life.
We are Christian and all that and attend church when we can; altho they go with their mom on weekends.
Lately i have become incredibly depressed by everything going on. I was mostly unaffected by Covid, I have prepped a large stash of stuff just in case, and for the most part my life isnt too objectively bad.
Dating has been hard and i am beginning to despair of ever finding a partner in this area and with the morass of online dating sites being the suckholes that they are.
Ironically being depressed and trying to date isnt the best combo so im just spiraling down on the regular.
I have prayed to God to send me someone who he intends for me, but thus far no luck.
I feel like theres nothing left for me in life. Nothing i want or need. I am hanging in there for my sons and my parents but you can only live for someone else for so long, and i feel my time is growing short.
Any advice to cheer me up? At 43 i have too far left to walk to do it alone but feel as though ive walked too far already to make finding someone a possibility.
And with all the vaxxing im not keen on meeting someone whos going to randomly sudden death on me, so im there at the viewing saying "im just thankful for the 6 great months we had together."
Ive lived and worked with pain and i just dont want any more, and God knows what ive been through...
I added you to the GA prayer list. As far as advice. The best advice I can give is to find people to help. Something about helping others really helps ourselves. God will send you what u need when u need it. Keep faith. Keep turning to him
Thank you. I am always looking for people to help. Oddly my current job which I thought would do more in that regard actually does less. And I'm alone with my thoughts for the majority of every day
Yes being alone with your thoughts can often be very challenging. If u ever want someone to talk to I am here for u fren. I love listening and talking with people and dont judge. We all have moments like your going thru. Dont give up. Keep leaning on Jesus. He is the key to it all.
Thanks. Gotta pick up my Bible reading again, I go through reading phases due to hectic life but was working thru new testament when I stopped last
Yes I do that as well. I will non stop read but then give up and not read at all. I have learned to just do my best to give 10 min a day. if I read more that's fine but always give atleast 10 min.