all of us had to start somewhere in r quest for truth. we had to have that desire to KNOW. there never has been anyone in my life w the same driving need to learn, converse, share info. for me internet was a very useful tool. in the beginning no one helped me on how to do this research. it took awhile to learn how to navigate the diff anon boards but i did persevere. it was well worth it. thankfully i found u guys n have been learning at a much faster pace, researching to 'make it my own'.