...I cannot believe how attuned I am to every little thing that could mean "this is it". Do I have an addiction?
I'm probably like a lot of you here... so aware (and still so ignorant, but just so much more aware than normies) and thus so READY.
Need to breathe deeply. Just a dust storm. Oh, shit... I need to close the windows!
Hard not to anguish. But... try to choose to be positive, and ask God to help channel that energy into a positive direction. That has worked for me, anyway, and in the process my overall outlook has become positive and I walk with God on this journey (probably the best outcome of this whole mess).