This has been an odd feeling I've been having for the past couple weeks. I feel like I was "baptized" and born again, but I can never really pinpoint when it happened. Over time I lost identity of who I was growing up, as if the lockdowns completely erased all sense of who I was. I still have memories of my younger self of course, but now they don't really feel like they're my memories. A lot of my ambitions remain the same, but I still like there's a lot missing. Think of switching from Windows to Linux and you're still struggling to learn all the features. That's how, I guess, my soul feels.
Anyone else experiencing this? Is this supposed to be a good thing?
I feel like I wish I knew then, what I know now. It would have affected my entire career choice and other unwise decisions. If only we had foresight instead of hindsight. But I believe a God has a plan for all of us, and what happened in life is how HE meant it to happen in the greater plan. Sometimes the PLAN forces you to be stronger than you thought you were to support others, to face adversity, to awaken others. God never gives you more than you can handle and the strength he gives you helps you mentally and physically meet challenges.