About half a year ago I confessed to my church community that I am struggling with SSA and posted here on GAW. From there I have been in a 12 step recovery program called Re:Generation. First I must start with I still have this attraction and that is okay, but I am no longer acting on my flesh (No longer seeking Homosexual relations/Porn). I have been searching for the root of my sin nature and have found some connections so far. I did not feel wanted/desired or understood by men in my life growing up, and was sexually abused by a male cousin. Long story short, I see that I used sex as a way to gain that want/desire and understanding from men. Which I felt Wanted/Desired when I was abused. This is a huge eye opening link to what may be what started this sin nature in me. While I have not seen a change in my attraction, like I mentioned I am no longer acting on this sin nature of mine. God is 100% capable of changing this in me, I will not deny His power. But as say to my church family walking with me, I need to first be okay with the idea that I may never be over this attraction, never have a relationship, and never have sexual "gratification" again. This may be the thorn in my side The Lord uses to remind me of where he has taken me, or the thorn may be removed and I can have children and a family that I want to have some day.
I just wanted to give an update for those who have seen my previous post on here. For those who are still active in SSA I am not judging you, I love you all and pray God reveals himself to you as He has done to me. Im not asking for you all to do what I am doing but to just get to know the Father, Son, and Spirit.
Thank you for reading this, any and all of you. Keep me in your prayers. God is great and may His will be done, not my own.
Pornography alone warps the brain. I know first hand as I watched someone heal from a 13+ year addiction. It takes time to rewire the brain, but you CAN fix the damage. We are NOT meant to watch others fornicate, that’s why even though you aren’t “there” having sex, you’re still visually seeing it happen.
Males are naturally more visual, females more spiritual. That’s one reason why men are more prone to sexual addiction.
I’ll be praying you find the path our Father laid out before your birth, He has good things panned for you to do and I hope you have the desire to complete them!! May the Fathers hand be on you and the Holy Spirit be within you to help guide you in this journey of life.
Yes. My life improved tremendously when I realized the horrors of pornography. I have sit downs with my teen aged boys and discuss how they have, and will make the same mistakes I did, but one day they will realize and their eyes will open. No one in their right mind choses the life of pornography. They have either been molested, sex trafficked, drug addicts, or are in such dire straights that it's their only way. I tell my boys that by viewing it they contribute to these people's situations. I asked each of them to ponder this simple question. Why is it free and easily accessible? They gave me some pretty good answers, but in the end I explained it to them, how it affected me. It damaged my soul. It is there to damage souls and to hurt lives.