I can promise you that there will be at least one other person in your meeting who drinks / drank because of their shyness / social awkwardness- that would have been me on many occasions.
Walking in the door will be the scariest / hardest part and then it’s over. You’re inside. You’re still alive and you did not shit your pants. If you know another alcoholic who is in recovery, ask them to take you to a meeting. One of the 12 principles of AA is to help other alcoholics gain their sobriety where and when possible. There is no judgement. You are surrounded by people just like you. I took a lot of comfort in that during early days of my recovery.
I can promise you that there will be at least one other person in your meeting who drinks / drank because of their shyness / social awkwardness- that would have been me on many occasions. Walking in the door will be the scariest / hardest part and then it’s over. You’re inside. You’re still alive and you did not shit your pants. If you know another alcoholic who is in recovery, ask them to take you to a meeting. One of the 12 principles of AA is to help other alcoholics gain their sobriety where and when possible. There is no judgement. You are surrounded by people just like you. I took a lot of comfort in that during early days of my recovery.