My friend....you have so much uncertainty. It is not our job to understand the plan God has for us, only that we use our abilities the best we can to help create heaven on earth. It is best we focus our thoughts on the things we can control.

We all die. But how are you going to live?

You clearly have the ability to see through the Matrix. Even if you can pull one person from there, surely the pain and suffering you have kept them from, equals all the self-imposed emotional responses you have been conditioned to feel.

Release those emotions. They will be there, hovering, but they will not be a part of you any longer. Use them as a scent in the breeze, interesting and noticeable but not of any substance.

Be a warrior, be brave and be the best version of yourself you can be.