I know exactly how you feel, friend, and I'm sorry it's been so rough on you.

Without knowing the details of the plan it's easy for all of us to doubt, feel like gullible fools, or feel hopeless. On the outside unable to look in, all we've been allowed to do is blindly trust that it'll get better but that leaves us with no choice but to wonder when it'll get better, and how much worse it'll get *before *it gets better.

I hate that, as Patriots, there's nothing in place for us. We're told we're watching a movie but we're feeling the extremely real effects of it. If they could promise me that no matter what I'd still have a house, bills paid, and food I'm willing to eat, I wouldn't sweat it. But I'm terrified.

It's going to get to a point where we (my family) will have to sacrifice food just to keep our home and gas in the car so we can earn money. We've already cut back so much.

I'm really scared. It's like standing on the tracks, watching a train coming at you in slow motion, and someone is on a megaphone promising you someone will come to save you but you can't see anyone around you. Meanwhile that person is on the megaphone telling you not to try to free your foot yourself.