I'm a Protestant that has no memory of every being in church, although my mother says she used to take me what I was small.

I've always been agnostic. The secular narrative of the nature of the world never made sense, though, and that always bugged me which is why I'm not an atheist.

IE.

1. The universe exploded from a single point. At that exact moment, there was no space or time.
2. The big bang exploded and suddenly there was space and time flowed as the particles and energy expanded in all directions.
3. Particles coalesced into stars that burned bright for billions of years and then ran out of fuel and then went supernova, creating heavier elements which coalesced again to create new stars and now planets and moons.
4. And galaxies formed.
5. And then on the planet earth, organic components 'primordial ooze' formed because of conditions on the planet's surface.
6. And then one day they kind of came together in a way where the proteins and stuff actually formed a structure that reproduced.
7. Over the millions and millions of years, it kept getting more complex until finally, we evolved.

So this seems pretty unlikely, but I always had a big problem with step 1.

There was no space or time? Then how could the big bang appear out of nothingness?

It has always seemed to me that that accepting that, is similar to believing in God because you just have to accept it without proof.

But now, as the world falls into chaos, it seems like a Star Trek holodeck episode where something has gone wrong in the virtual world and crazy things are happening.

Before the Podesta emails were leaked in March 2016, I was pretty much a normie Republican. I thought the fight was between Liberals and Conservatives.

Back then there was all this really sick stuff going on at Comet Pizza. Their instagram was live. All the content from JimmyComet's social media could be viewed. And all these politicians were clearly loving this stuff. The shop owner was named one of the 100 most influential people in Washington DC. A pizza shop owner. Of the 535 members in the Senate and House, this pizza shop owner was more influential than most of them.

It was like we are living in a simulation and suddenly the mods started messing reality to see how we would react. Ever since then things just keep getting more and more crazy.

And so is it a battle between the Big Government Liberals and the Small Government Conservatives? No. Clearly not. The RINOs are on the same team as the Democrats.

And so is it a battle between the elites and the populists. Clearly yes. But the elites really seem to be worshiping Satan. And the Populists do not.

And so is this really a battle between good and evil? If the elites are worshiping Satan that means that they believe in powers from another realm. And if they are worshiping evil and believe in Satan, and they have all this power and money, how do we fight them?

They believe Satan exists. And they have all the power and money.

I don't know if I am sure I believe in God, but I sure would rather be on His side than their side. I've tried to pray a few times but it is so unfamiliar to me to me that I feel like I don't know what I'm doing.

But one thing is for sure. This fight is between good and evil and I want to be on the side of good. And I'm also sure that the frens side is the good side.