I dont know if im the only one, but lately I've been feeling like I'm on some personal island. So many people I know just do not seem to see what's coming. I dont feel like I can even plan for the future beyond prepping. I am a hard worker with a good job. I study hard and am educated.
My ex gf, whom I adored, broke up with me over a year ago and I still have dreams about her. I tried online dating, but everyone is just ... asleep.
Im not sure if others seem to have this feeling too. Like standing at the edge of a cliff that was never there before and I cant see whats out there.
So many lies everwhere I look. I talk to God and put my faith in Him. Still, its a bit scary. I dont want to talk to anyone because I honestly dont know what to say. I just yammer on about prepping and how everything is a lie.
This is all so exhausting. And here we are heading into some of the most difficult of times. Unreal. My vision of life is being permanently altered. Very cloudy.
Please, God. Please give us strength and patience. Please forgive us all and protect our loved ones. Please give us clarity. 🙏
I've always been a rock for my community when it comes to seeing through everything. I even quit drinking recently because I feel like my body may need to be ready for tough times.
Quitting the drinking was an eye opener. I have been skulking around my apartment alone completely sober and I realized I haven't gone more than 3 weeks since I was 16 (close to 30 years ago) without having a drink.
With all my goals I am pursuing I decided that I am full of shit.
Everything seems in question at the moment.
It’s alright, just go easy on yourself for a little bit. Be okay with not feeling ok for awhile. I’m of the opinion that God chooses who wakes up and when. You have some sort of purpose you’re supposed to fulfill in this process of the great awakening. Pray about and meditate on that in order to keep your mind off of the negativity you’re currently feeling ❤️