I dont know if im the only one, but lately I've been feeling like I'm on some personal island. So many people I know just do not seem to see what's coming. I dont feel like I can even plan for the future beyond prepping. I am a hard worker with a good job. I study hard and am educated.
My ex gf, whom I adored, broke up with me over a year ago and I still have dreams about her. I tried online dating, but everyone is just ... asleep.
Im not sure if others seem to have this feeling too. Like standing at the edge of a cliff that was never there before and I cant see whats out there.
So many lies everwhere I look. I talk to God and put my faith in Him. Still, its a bit scary. I dont want to talk to anyone because I honestly dont know what to say. I just yammer on about prepping and how everything is a lie.
This is all so exhausting. And here we are heading into some of the most difficult of times. Unreal. My vision of life is being permanently altered. Very cloudy.
Please, God. Please give us strength and patience. Please forgive us all and protect our loved ones. Please give us clarity. 🙏
I feel like we're on the brink of eternity. It's hard to think of the future so I try to do my daily duty to God and man. I do it for the Lord. It makes me a better mom and wife. But the dreamy feeling reminds me of this verse. I don't know how much of the Plan we will get to see, but they need us as long as we're here. They need our prayers and our witness. Psalm 126 "When the LORD turned again the captivity of Zion, we were like them that dream. [2] Then was our mouth filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing: then said they among the heathen, The LORD hath done great things for them. [3] The LORD hath done great things for us; whereof we are glad. [4] Turn again our captivity, O LORD, as the streams in the south. [5] They that sow in tears shall reap in joy. [6] He that goeth forth and weepeth, bearing precious seed, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him.