I dont know if im the only one, but lately I've been feeling like I'm on some personal island. So many people I know just do not seem to see what's coming. I dont feel like I can even plan for the future beyond prepping. I am a hard worker with a good job. I study hard and am educated.
My ex gf, whom I adored, broke up with me over a year ago and I still have dreams about her. I tried online dating, but everyone is just ... asleep.
Im not sure if others seem to have this feeling too. Like standing at the edge of a cliff that was never there before and I cant see whats out there.
So many lies everwhere I look. I talk to God and put my faith in Him. Still, its a bit scary. I dont want to talk to anyone because I honestly dont know what to say. I just yammer on about prepping and how everything is a lie.
This is all so exhausting. And here we are heading into some of the most difficult of times. Unreal. My vision of life is being permanently altered. Very cloudy.
Please, God. Please give us strength and patience. Please forgive us all and protect our loved ones. Please give us clarity. 🙏
I sort of know what you feeling. I'm not exactly in your shoes but I can't seem to really do the things I know I need to do to prepare for the times to come.
It's like I'm addicted to this damn computer. I'm usually on it till wee hours. To me the best part of a day is early in the morning, but here I am staying awake till sun up and sleeping to noon. I absolutely hate the bad habit I've gotten into. It's like my willpower has been taken over by some invisible force. I can't make myself do what I know i need to do.
I did prepare a garden plot, but managed to only plant some beans in some barrels. I need to be planning my fall garden, getting the seeds going for transplant. I need to get my chicken coup going too, and haven't done shit there.
I do have a moderate amount of food, and got enough ammo unless it's a real SHTF scenario.
My advise on meeting someone when you don't know what to say is, don't say anything. Learn to listen instead.
I am glad I had my two pecker goat heyday back in late 70's, 80. I would not kiss, or do anything else with a vaxxed girl now-a-days.
Tell me about it. Although I did find by quitting drinking I have a lot more energy to do tasks. Not sure if you drink ever, but it's an eye opener quitting.
Oh yea, I had a drink or two. I was never a gutter wino, but up until six/seven months ago I was killing a two or three 750ml whisky bottles a week. I think I was pretty much drinking myself to death. I keep getting this feeling that one morning my wife would find me in dead in the bed.
About seven months ago, I saw a post out here that basically said that alcohol was one of the ways that the cabal is using to enslave us. Not to mention that Satan as his hand in that game too. This message finally got to me, and I quit.
I still have a desire to go get a bottle ever now and then, but I get my mind on something else, and forget about it.
I don't no that I have that much more energy. No doubt I spend a heck of a lot less money, and I am not as big of an asshole as I used to be. Drinking cost me a lot of embarrassment over my life cause I am not a good drunk. I wish I had never taken it up.
BTW - congrats on you sobriety.