I dont know if im the only one, but lately I've been feeling like I'm on some personal island. So many people I know just do not seem to see what's coming. I dont feel like I can even plan for the future beyond prepping. I am a hard worker with a good job. I study hard and am educated.
My ex gf, whom I adored, broke up with me over a year ago and I still have dreams about her. I tried online dating, but everyone is just ... asleep.
Im not sure if others seem to have this feeling too. Like standing at the edge of a cliff that was never there before and I cant see whats out there.
So many lies everwhere I look. I talk to God and put my faith in Him. Still, its a bit scary. I dont want to talk to anyone because I honestly dont know what to say. I just yammer on about prepping and how everything is a lie.
This is all so exhausting. And here we are heading into some of the most difficult of times. Unreal. My vision of life is being permanently altered. Very cloudy.
Please, God. Please give us strength and patience. Please forgive us all and protect our loved ones. Please give us clarity. 🙏
Everything seems worse after a breakup. It's hard to make sense of anything right now but that makes it infinitely harder. Here's a few thoughts I'll share. You're not alone. People, especially those who follow the happenings here and on other .alt news sites see how bad things are but the people in the trenches see even more. Q once posted that those that know, can't sleep.
You're doing the right thing by posting how you're feeling and not keeping it inside. There are other things you can do to help yourself. What you need is time to heal. That means anything that gets you through each day that is not self destructive is good. Do you golf? Fish? Play an instrument? Would you like to learn a new language? Do you have any hobby that is enjoyable? Make time to do it on a regular basis. Doing something that gives you something else to think about is therapeutic and makes good use of time. It aids in healing.
You mention working and studying. Those can be good but you need to spend time doing something enjoyable that is just for you. Takes your mind off things, puts something else in front of your mind. Spend a little more money on yourself than normal. Be as kind to the person you see in the mirror as you would to a best friend. Help that person in the mirror get his head into a better place.
Take a couple flying lessons, try scuba, take a painting class, buy yourself that toy you've wanted. Whatever puts a smile on your face is great medicine for healing. You can't do much about the world but you can do things to help yourself get through a rough spot. String together a few days of smiles and you'll feel a lot better. Then put a couple of weeks of smiles together and you'll be in a better place for yourself and that will be attractive to others you hope to meet.